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"—-love bug" i smiled laughing as we tried to get Autumn's first steps on camera. "she's gonna take her first steps in a minute i can feel it" i said while the camera was still rolling. " okay i'm gonna give you the giraffe and she'll walk to you" i gave billie , who was holding the camera the giraffe toy. her favorite.

"well she's not gonna do it on que she's gonna surprise us" she told me. "right!" she looked down at Autumn. "you gonna surprise us ! here you go. hi!" i said to her. "she's gonna take her first steps in daycare and then i'm gonna kill myself " i said.

"no she won't. you're not gonna do that right? Autumn. come to mommy! come to mommy! you're just the cutest kid in the entire planet why is that" she said behind the camera while i was trying to stand her up. "she's perfect" i said smiling in a perky tone.

"okay" she put the camera down as i smiled with Autumn in my hands as billie gave up thinking if she wouldn't pay attention maybe she'll start to walk.

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today is that day when my best friend , my person leaves to .. go to Switzerland. which i am not ready for "hi" i said to Kaitlyn walking down the hallway. "hi" she said. "gotta boat load of surgeries can't talk right now" she said.

"don't you have a plane to catch? i asked. "yes" she replied. "i'm 100% going into PEDS" Owen walked up to us. "i'm going into Cardio , i'm a
Cardiothoracic whore. " Kaitlyn said. "i don't know what i'm doing" i told them.

"you have like a year and 9 months left chose wisely" Owen told me. "why are you happy devil spawn?" she asked Owen. "why are you sad?" she asked. its been not even 4 days since Jermey broke up with his girlfriend and Kaitlyn and him are sleeping together again.

"go away" she said to him. "you're weird" he replied. "yeah okay talk to me like that when you have a deal out of this country" she joked down the hall as she walked off.

" so what's going with you and spring" i asked Owen. "we get closer everyday , i love her and i want to tell her but i just- i don't know" he stammered. "if you love someone you tell them" i told him.

LILY POV

"oh my god oh my god oh my god" i repeated as i looked down at my pregnancy test in the bathroom. it's positive i can't believe its.. oh my gosh. i have to find Jordan holy hell. i put the pregnancy test back in my bag.

how did it get to this? one minute ima virgin the next ima women who runs away from their wedding! what kind of stupid is this? "Jordan!" i spotted from down the hall as i rushed to him.

"i have to tell you something i-" i stopped talking when i fount him , my ex fiancé the paramedic , Ryan. the one who i ran away from he's given me everything and i ran away. he had his hand on a running bleeder.

"i'll- i'll come back" i said as he stared at me cold hearted. "no say what you have to say its fine" he said. "no you're good i'll-" i said and i left. "Lily" he called from down the hallway.

GEORGIA

it's 5:30 Kaitlyn should be at least gone by now if she wants to make it. i walked in the O.R. as she looked at me. "do you want to come in?" Kaitlyn asked me washing her hands before her next surgery. "no what are you still doing here what time is your flight?" i asked. "i cant leave Geo theres so much stuff here that i have to be here for like you , who's gonna make sure you're okay" she asked.

"i don't need babysitting, i am grown now. i have billie and Owen so you can go" i reassured her. "when i was packing my things, i thought about the time me and Francis bought furniture for my apartment after both of our boyfriends cheated on us" she said.