Ms. Belova

Breaking Hearts

It was Wednesday I've been thinking about Spencer and I. I did care about him and would love to be friends with him but if I was true to myself then I wasn't in love with him.

I felt bad so I called him. "Princess?" he sounded happy that I called him which kind of broke my heart a bit I let out a shaky sigh "Spence... Could you come over please I need to talk to you" "Princess, are you ok? What's wrong?" "Just come over here please.." he hums "I'll be right there!" he said before hanging up.

As much as I liked him, I found it wrong that I was dating him just to get my mind off someone else. There was a knock on my door.

I opened the door slowly, Spencer stood there and wanted to pull me into a hug but I back away. "Hey. Come here." he says attempting to reassure me. I shake my head 'no' "Spencer I'm the worst person on earth and I'm certainly the last person you should be dating! You're so kind and caring you'll make someone the luckiest person in the world but that can't be me." I blurt out my eyes burning while tears well up I felt horrible for using someone like this.

"What are you talking about?" he said calmly but clearly confused. "I needed a distraction from someone. I used you... I'm sorry Spencer." I say lowly as I brace myself to get yelled at. He is upset but he doesn't raise his voice. Instead, he just gives me a sad smile "It's alright. I'm glad you could get away from whoever it is for a while." he held out his hand and wiped the stray tears that rolled down my face.

I hug him. "thank you" I whispered. He looked down at me with a smile "Friends?" he questioned and I give him a 'really?' look and he just gives me a nod, I smiled and nod.

He stayed at my dorm for a while, it was comforting, like an older brother protecting me. After chatting for a while he hugged me goodbye and I felt empty again. Like I was alone with nobody who cared for me. It was lonely.

The following days went by slowly and then it was finally time. At the end of the Russian lesson I wanted to walk out but Yelena calling my name reminds me of the plans we made "Y/n." she calls out before I leave I turn to look at her.

She paused and waited for a while for everyone to leave before saying "I'll drive you to mine." I hum "Ok. But I'm not going like this. Not in my sweaty clothes, I didn't change after PE. come to get me in about 30 minutes. There's usually no one near my dorm after school so..you should be fine. 32B." I say calmly trying to mask my nerves as I walk out the room leaving Yelena in shock.

As soon as I get a few steps away from the classroom I start sprinting to my dorm to quickly shower and get ready. After my rushed shower I dry my hair and curl it and put on some plain black jeans and a white short-sleeved blouse. I go for a similar mature-looking smokey-eyed makeup look with a dark wine red lip and eyeliner this time. I slip on some black heels and wait.

Having 5 minutes to catch my breath. I had start to pick up a few things that had fallen all over the place in the process of getting ready when there's a knock on the door I grab my dainty clutch and stuff my phone into it and open the door slowly making sure it's the person I'm expecting.

Yelena stands there with her eyes wide and mouth slightly open. "Can't you stare at me later and not in the hall?" I questioned eager to leave, afraid someone would see us. Yelena snapped out of her thoughts and cleared her throat "Y-yeah, sorry. Let's go before we get seen." she quickly says and with that, we leave and hurry to her car. I caught Yelena glancing at my feet impressed at how quick I could walk considering the size of my heels.

"Yes. I know how to walk in these puppies." I proudly state trying to keep the cool and confident attitude that I had when leaving Yelena in the classroom. We walk up to her car and she opened the door for me, I roll my eyes but smile I found it sweet, how hard she was trying to make it up to me.

The drive to her apartment was quiet but it wasn't an awkward silence it was comfortable.

Once we arrived Yelena quickly got out and wanted to open the door for me again but I open it myself and look up at her with a smirk. "I can manage, you know?" I say still smirking at her her face flushed with embarrassment and she looked down at her feet and hummed, I felt kind of bad so I got back into the car. She gave me a confused look I looked at the door and she opened it."What are you doing?" she questioned still not understanding what or why I did what I did. "you got to open the door for me so stop being so quiet and start talking. It's awkward if I'm just talking to myself." I say smiling as she smiles now too.

She put her hand out and waited. I look at it and place mine hesitantly but surely in hers. As she leads me up to her apartment. I caught a glimpse of the 8 on the door as she unlocked it and as she gestured for me to go inside I get slight deja vu.

"I hope I don't get kicked out again this time." I say bluntly as I walk into her modernly chic apartment. "Can we cook together this time?" I ask with a smile turning to Yelena as I take my heels off. She nods and I groan. "Have you become mute all of a sudden? Should I try the unmute button on a remote?" I say walking closer to her.

"I'm sorry. I just... I don't know what to say or do." Yelena says looking at the floor avoiding eye contact I huff. "Should I leave again then?" I say shrugging lowly. "W-What?! No!" Yelena quickly says "Give me a reason to stay then. You're not talking to me. You're not even looking at me. What do you want me to do here? Cook and leave again?!" I ask full of frustration "I left a perfect guy for you on Wednesday. Do something to make it less of a mistake." I say taking another step closer craving her.

No matter how much I denied it, I wanted her, I wanted her to kiss me again. Or at least hold my hand again. She looked me in the eyes "that's a lot better than looking at the floor." I state cupping her cheek slowly she leans into my touch and smiles sheepishly.

A/N- THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR OVER 700 READSSS :D but I have a question for you guys! Should I start writing in 'I' or keep the 'you' like ("She looked ME in the eyes" instead of "She looked YOU in the eyes")