Ms. Belova

Slurs

The weekend passed very quickly and before I knew it it was Monday. I'm worried about what could happen when I enter the classroom. I just hope Yelena contains herself since at least one pair of eyes on me were guaranteed.

I walk into the room and Yelena isn't in the classroom yet, I'm about to take my usual seat when I hear "Aren't you going to sit next to your boyfriend?" from one of the boys behind me. I sigh and wanted to explain that Spencer and I aren't dating anymore but I glanced over at Spencer and he had a weird look on his face.

One of the boys speaks up. "Oh yeah. I remember now. You're a slut aren't you?" "What?!" I ask angrily "Spencer told us how you fucked with him and then broke up with him and said that the reason was that you needed multiple dicks to satisfy you." Another boy said. It hurt. I trusted him. I was honest! And yet he goes and starts some stupid rumor like this!? I felt my eyes burn up I can't manage to choke out a single word so I just look at him...

That asshole seemed pleased with my reaction to this. Suddenly, everything seems loud. I wasn't sure if I was imagining it or not but all the boys got up, pointed at me, and started yelling random slurs like slut hoe cheater bitch and so on. Every one of them repeating in my head as I run out of the room, a few doors down I bump into Yelena her stack of papers falling to the ground "Whoa Y/n? Hey-" I don't bother to finish listening to her, I just run past her to my dorm.

Once I'm in my dorm I slam the door shut and fall to the ground. Finally understanding what's happening. A panic attack. I used to get them all the time when I was still with my parents but they stopped once I was with my grandparents I never told them about it since they had stopped. I started to cough at how much I struggled to breathe. I curled up into a ball.

I suddenly felt hands on my face causing me to flinch "Hey. Shh... I'm here baby. It's just me.." I hear Yelena's voice and I look up locking eyes with her. "There we go, now can you breathe with me?" she runs her thumb over my damp under-eye and we breathe together for a while.

Now that I've calmed down I hold onto her, she quickly pecks my forehead. "I told the boys that Russian was off for today. They told me what happened. And I gave all of them detention for the whole week." she says weaving her fingers into my baby hairs on the back of my head. "Y-you didn't have to do that for me." I say my voice still shaky. "Hey it's ok now I'm here." She reassures me, still gliding her thumb across my face.

"Yelena." I breathe out she looks concerned. "Yeah, baby?" she mumbles quietly to not startle me. "I don't want to say here tonight.." I hum nervously. "You want to stay at my place instead? I'll drive you here early tomorrow morning so no one sees us. Is that alright?" She asks and I hum and nod. "School ends at 4.30 for me today. " I say "That's good you'll have 30 minutes to get all the things you'll need and I'll get you at 5 ok?" she questioned still looking a little worried. I nod and snuggle into her neck straddling her in the process.

I feel her relax and hear a satisfied sounding hum once she noticed that I hadn't covered her marks "The canceled Russian lesson is almost over." she grumbled lowly into my ear. I hum "I know but I don't want to let you go...". I grumble back "I'll hold you all night baby but I have to go, see you later." She says standing up. "See you later." I hum lowly also standing up and wait around for a while so it doesn't seem like Yelena was here.

The rest of the day I just feel anxious without reason. Probably just because I'm afraid of having another sudden panic attack and Yelena not being able to be there but surely I somehow make it through the day.

Now I'm sat in my dorm waiting for Yelena when there's a knock on the door. I slowly open it to see Spencer I groan to myself quietly. "Please go away, Spencer. I don't want to see you. Neither do I want to hear any of your stupid excuses. I trusted you! And you just throw my trust out of the Window! As if it meant nothing!" I say in frustration. Spencer tried to say something but I don't let him. "Spencer. Go away!" I yell out. "Y/n" he says I go to close the door but he grips my wrists triggering me.

I push him out and slam the door shut sliding down into a corner trying to regain my breathing. But the memories of my parents gripping my wrists and dragging me into my room and beating me almost daily replays in my head. I try to gasp for air but everything goes black.

I awake to see Yelena's concerned face." Y/n? Y/n! Are you ok!? What happened?!" She questions worry coating her voice. "I-I'm sorry..It happened again" I say lowly "C'mon let's go to mine. Ok?" She says rubbing my back I nod.

We go out of my dorm and to her car. She hasn't moved her hand from my back the whole way. Once we get there she holds my hand in hers and we enter her apartment.

She brings me to her huge bed "We're not sleeping on the couch tonight." I hum in response.

Once we're changed we get back into bed and like Yelena said she holds me all night not letting me go.

I'm so glad that I have someone like her now and don't have to stay alone.