Behind The Gun

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Jada pov
8:35pm

I was sitting in the corner of the after party building while charging my phone. The party been over like 30 minutes ago but Diamond wanted some of her close peoples to stay with her while the people cleaned up.

I was day dreaming and was suddenly out of it when i seen someone walking up to me in the corner of my eyes. When i look up it was of course Darnell. Ugh.

I roll my eyes and start getting my stuff together so i could get far away from him. He gently grabs my arms and his touch made me stop dead in my tracks. I cant lie, missed his touch so much...

I yank my arm back trying to get the feelings that were starting to come back out of my body.

"i just wanted to see how you were" Darnell looks into my eyes, i felt like he was trying to find my emotions through them.

I look down, not knowing where else to look. "fine."

He sighs and sits there for a couple seconds. 

"i miss you yo" he says.

I shake my head, "just stop" I scoffed.

"you wouldn't of gotten another girl pregnant if you cared about me!"

"you can't keep using that against me jada" He raises his voice.

"why can't i?? you got another bitch pregnant!"tears start to form in my eyes.

This is exactly why i didn't want to talk to him because it takes me back to when we was supposed to have a baby and i get angry all over again. im really heart broken from this shit, how you cheat on me than have a baby! thats sum fucked up shit!

"you know i ain't do this on purpose. after everything we've been through?" He tries to grab my hand but i move.

"yup...after everything we've been through, you still cheated" I chuckle and shake my head in disbelief.

"you dont care about my feelings Darnell, cause if you did you would've at least thought about putting a condom on when you wanted to nut in the bitch." i yell.

"i don't even remember going home wit her! i was blacked out!" He yells back.

"im not listening to that bullshit lie" I roll my eyes.

"yall! yall!" Diamond yells at us out of nowhere, we didn't even see her come up to us.

"you serious?" She looks at us like were crazy.

"im sorry Diamond, i dont know why im wasting my breath on this nigga" i roll my eyes and walk away.

I don't want hear what Darnell got to say, i have every right to be hurt. I dont care what anyone says. It hits different when yall been through real shit together and then throw it all out the window.

I walk outside trying to get a breath of fresh air because i felt so suffocated.

A couple seconds later Imani comes out the building with a sad face.

"heard yall....you okay?" She grabs my hands.

Imani and Diamond both knew how hard Darnell getting another girl pregnant after what we've been through was for me and i was happy i told them because they been with me every step of the way & i don't think i would've been able to handle all that by myself.

I nod. "yes, i just wish he seen it from my perspective. what if i cheated on him and got pregnant by another guy. he would go crazy but he just thinks i should let it go"