Distracted || 5SOS Fanfic

P. 27

"I don't remember," he lies. He puts the car in reverse and backs of the driveway.

"Are you sure?" I ask, "no words are coming to mind?"

He looks at me and back at the road, "it was a while ago. It's not important anymore."

"Okay," I didn't want to fight it. He didn't want to tell me.

Silence appeared once again. We stop at a light.

He looks at me, "I was just going to tell you how I felt at that time."

He starts driving again.

"Which was?"

"Now's not the time to say all this."

"Just tell me," I urged, "I want to know."

He focuses on the road, "I wanted to tell you that I grew feelings for you since the day we met. I was going to ask you out... I wanted to start something, but that was before you started dating Mikey... I was too late. You seemed happy with him and I didn't want to intrude. I knew that he felt the same way I did about you."

I knew it. I wanted to hear more to know that what he was saying was true, "is that all?"

He looked at me, "there's more but I just can't say it."

I stared back into his eyes knowing the one difference between him and Mikey, I truly loved Ashton.

It wasn't long that we looked at each other, but all of a sudden we see a car coming towards us. We had drifted into the other lane. We crashed into a an SUV. I don't remember what had happened from there. I just remember waking up in a hospital bed with Mikey asleep in a chair as he held my hand.

I felt sore and I could barely move. I removed the breathing mask.

"What's going on?" I couldn't remember anything.

Mikey wakes up, "Thank God you're awake, I'm so sorry for fighting with you." He cries and kisses my hand, "I was afraid of losing you."

"How long have I been here?"

"3 days."

I try to get up, but I couldn't. It hurt.

"Don't move, I'll get whatever you need. Just relax. The doctor said the impact left you with a few major bruises and shattered collar bone."

"How long will I take to recover?" I asked concerned.

"He said not long, maybe a few weeks, which isn't bad knowing that you could have easily died in the accident. It was a miracle that you didn't."

Regaining consciousness, I thought about where I was in life. I remember the fight and the kiss and Ashton... "Where was Ashton?"

"He's fine. He left the hospital yesterday. No broken bones, a little bruised, and just a little traumatized. He stopped by earlier to check up on you, he wanted to apologize for all this."

I was relieved to know that he was alright. I didn't really care that I was hurt, I just wanted to know that he was fine. In fact, I wouldn't have mind dying, just as long as he survived.

I asked Mikey, "what about our wedding?"

He smiled with relief, "it's whatever you want to do with it. We can postpone it until you fully recover, or we can carry on just as it is..."

"We can wait," I tell him.

He nods.

First of all, I didn't want to look like a mess in a wedding gown. Second, I wanted more time to think about whether the wedding was the right thing to do. And third, I want to finish things up with Ashton; I needed more time.