How Can I Forget?

Chapter 20

Nandito ako ngayon sa may kitchen and I am currently puting some ingredients sa mixer for a cake that is for tomorrow. It is a debut cake themed with sunflowers. Im sure Im gonna have so much fun baking this because we're talking about sunflowers here! My favorites!

Halos half day ako sa may kitchen just to finish this 3 tier cake. When I went back to my office, with all the messy bun and still some flour on my face, I directly lay myself in the sofa. I checked my phone and saw 12 missed calls all from Samuel.

After our fight last week, He's always trying to contact me. Pinipili kong huwag siyang pansinin. Yes, I'm still mad. How could I? Even when my parents are alive, hindi ako pinagsalitaan nang ganun. I understand ate Sandra raising her voice in me, just because she's my ate. Samuel? Ama lang siya ni Seth. We're not even official boyfriend and girlfriend.

Samantha please pick up.

Samantha

Where are you?

Let's talk please.

All text massages from Samuel. I ignored and I blocked his number. How funny that last week, I am so kind to him, now I'm cold as ice. Serves him right for not validating my point.

Hindi ko namalayan na nakatulog na pala ako.Nagising ako kasi may kumakatok. It's already pass 2 when I woke up. Morning palang Seth is already at Ate's because I cant take him to school kasi my schedule is packed with all these orders. Nakalimutan ko tuloy mag lunch. palagi nalang Samantha.

"Wait lang" I acknowledge the person who I dont know who para naman ma aware siya. I checked myself sa mirror and wiped the flour sa may cheeks ko. i just let my messy bun be. I dont have time to fix myself.

When I opened the door, I saw a bouquet of sunflower, too many sunflower to be exact! If Im one of those cartoon shows now, my eyes are already forming heart shaped because of kilig.

But when the person holding it lowered down the bouquet, my smiled quickly vanished.

"Hey," He started. I quickly closed back the door pero naabutan niya ito and he went directly inside of my office. How dare he?!

"We need to talk" I rolled my eyes. Huh? talk? I already opened that suggestion weeks ago and now siya na naman ang nag rerequest?!

I sat down back sa sofa and I crossed my hands at doon pa namalayan na naka apron pa pala ako. Im all messy now with no make up. Sana pala nag-ayos ako ng kaunti. Why didn't I even noticed my outfit when I checked myself sa mirror kanina? Pero hindi na ito importante ngayon.

"Sorry for what happened last week. I didn't mean to shout. I just... Im just so consumed with anger. Sorry dahil nagpadala ako sa aking emosyon. For all the words I said, hindi ko sinasadya yun Samantha. Please forgive me."

His eyes are full of guilt. I stared at him and noticed he's wearing a button down polo and slacks and an italian shoes. Bakit ang porma nito? Nagmukha tuloy akong maid niya nito.

I just stayed silent. I dont want to meet his gaze. Kung tumitig ako sa kaniyang mga mata ay malulunod lang ako at magiging marupok. I dont want that.

Tumabi siya sa akin and he held my hands. Bigla naman akong kinabahan.

"Samantha pansinin mo naman ako." His voice... parang nanghihina ako.

"Baby..." Pagsabi niya noon ay naiyak na ako. Heto na nga sinasabi ko huwag umiyak eh! He quickly hugged me, my face in his chest while Im sobbing.

"Im sorry baby. Im sorry... Im sorry I wasn't there. Im sorry for what ive said. Im sorry Samantha." my walls are all devastated. "Please forgive me. Hindi totoo yung custody Samantha. I cant... Days without you and Seth are just not bearable. Im ready to listen now. Im sorry.."