The Love Battle(Chaelisa)

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LALISA MANOBAN'S POV

"What is she doing right now? Is she okay? Will she be alright?" I question absentmindedly,staring at the floor beneath me.I was currently sitting on the floor with my both knees on my chest.Jennie unnie is sitting beside me,looking as broken as I am.She's been silently crying over her own wife but right now,her tears had dried and she had stopped crying.

But that does not mean her heart had been healed.Her wife wanting to divorce her.That is scary.Very scary that if I'm in her place,I would have been more worst than just crying.

But just like her,I'm worried too about my wife.What if she hate me when she sees me? What if she don't want me to be around her anymore? After all,I had left her alone when I promise not to.Not enough,I risk her life by doing nothing when she was lying unconsciously in my arms.What kind of wife I am? Stupid..this is what type of wife I am.

Why are two Manoban sister like this?

I turn my head to the left side to stare at my Unnie.Her eyes is bloodshot and the tip of her nose is red.Guilt wash over me.If it wasn't because of me,she won't be in this kind of situation.

"I'm sorry" I finally says.I can't hold back my guilty feeling towards her marriage with Jisoo Unnie.Jennie Unnie does not deserve this kind of pain.She done nothing but were going to get her divorce paper tommorow morning from her wife because she choose me tonight instead of her own wife.

She sigh heavily. "It's not your fault dummy" she says under her breath without turning her head to look at me.If I wasn't sitting closely with her,I won't be hearing her words.It's too low and small like a whisper.

This time,I am the one who sigh, knowing she will never going to put the blame on me because that's just how she is.Jennie Unnie might look like a rude bitch,arrogant,look like she does not care about that 'person' but she always feels the opposite in the inside.She looked tough in the outside but are soft in the inside.The people who don't really know her will think she is cold,distant,bitchy and badass.

But I can tell you,Jennie Unnie is the sweetest person if you get to know her.Maybe you will found out her blunt side is the total deducting point for the mark of her invisible sweetnest and care but still,she is good,kind and loving.She just don't show much to anyone.

"What if Rosie hate me after what I did tonight?" I question.It was a question more to myself.Not Jennie Unnie.I just can't help the feeling of Rosie hating me after what I did tonight.I mean,Jisoo must be telling her about my stupid doing if she woke up.The thought about her hating me make me feeling want to die.I'd really rather be dead than to see the love of my life hating me.That is the very last thing I want to happen.

"She won't be hating you.Don't worry.She..i don't know.I just think she will not hate you" Jennie Unnie says, replying to my self question. "But Jisoo will hate me for my decision tonight.And she must be hating you too for doing that to her sister.We both are going to be hated by her and that's bullshit" she add with a crack in the end.She must be wanting to cry again at the mention of her wife name.I know this is hard for her but reassurance can be putted in her words.She said Rosie will not hate me.Will it be like that or the opposite? I mean,human are unpredictable.As for Rosie,I had promised her not to leave her alone but still I broke it.Will that still be fine with her?

No,right?

Why do I feel so broken and uneasy right now? Like.. something bad will going to happen soon.Was it the feeling of my own wife hating me? My heart can't stop feeling anxious about the question "What if?" .

I mean,if Rosie really hate me tommorow,I'll just kill myself by making myself drowning in the sea.I can't even picture a world without her by my side,not to say she is hating me.No! I can't go through that.