That old melancholy feeling

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*{TW ~ argument , mention of SH and ED}*
also if you want to you can listen to "slipping through my fingers" for the argument cos it makes it even sadder😩✋
The past few days were pretty normal with Bella , i stuck to my 'unhealthy' routine of having breakfast then leaving to 'brush my teeth' , when in reality it was something completely different , i would then try my best to skip lunch and then eat dinner and go to the bathroom again.
I think Bella noticed my rapid weight loss over 3 days but she chose not to say anything , after all she saw me eating , she was adamant that i was getting better , however i was a little scared she was catching onto my self harm as she had only seen me with my arms covered , even when i slept.
We were due to start training today as our mission to Hogwarts begins in just over two weeks . Its mainly just going to be strengthening what we already know , we need to be powerful as well as smart for this to work , if we got caught who knows what would happen to us .

6:37am  - *Y/N'S POV*

My eyes adjusted to the light and i lent over ,  to where Bellatrix would usually be lying , so i could cuddle her , but instead i was met with an empty bed and a note written in Bellas surprisingly fancy handwriting .

The note read -

morning princess ,
                 i'll meet you in the furthest part of the gardens , we need to begin some standard training , wear something appropriate and make sure to eat breakfast first , i love you x

~ B <3

*fuck* i thought
*i need to get ready*

^^^ i wore a black mid length flowy dress which was easy to move in and i put on some light makeup

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i wore a black mid length flowy dress which was easy to move in and i put on some light makeup.
however i glared down at my arms and realized my cuts still hadn't fully healed so i proceeded to throw on a black zip up hoodie , regardless of it not matching .
I looked back to Bellatrixs note and for a few seconds though about breakfast but i then decided to ignore it and just say i ate . By the time i left my room it was 7:30am.

- - -
I strolled through the manor as the sound of my boots echoed throughout the halls , i passed a few of Bellas house elf's and made sure to give them a kind smile  as i continued walking . i creaked open the big black door which led to the garden , Bella owned a large proportion of land , a small amount was a garden with a fountain and some benches , surrounded by a wall with a gate , another area was kept for flowers , rose bushes and special trees , a small pond was located in it , it was also surrounded by a second wall with an opening  , then after that , stretched a large forest , it looked terrifying but was really beautiful once you walked through it a little , it was filled with so many special and gorgeous plants , i really relished the gardens , i absolutely adored them , including the forest . On the left of the gardens and the forest was a large daisy field where we used to play a lot as kids , it stretched the entire length of the gardens and the forest , that also belonged to the Black family .

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