Why, why, why did it have to be him?
No, no, no.
He's a horrible person, he's betrayed, he's lied, he's snitched.
He's killed.
And my heart manages to look past all that and still belong to him.
It pains my head having to think about him all the time.
And why did he have to love me back?
As we stood in a dark room in the castle face to face, he says, "If you hate me so much, why don't you just forget about me? You know the spell, go on." Tears streamed down his face. I bit my lip in frustration til it bled a little.
I tried to take a breath in, but my sobbing was uncontrollable. "I DON'T HATE YOU," I yelled. He jumped, not expecting me to throw my words at his face. "I can't bring myself to do it. I can't find it in me to say the spell."
"I love you... I- I hate myself because I do, you're a shitty human being and I hate it, but I fucking love you, I hate that I love you," I said as I pounded on his chest.
"You aren't good for me, but somehow... somehow I still want to be near you," I sobbed. It was getting difficult for me to breathe.
"I can't forget you. I can't. This... this feels a lot stronger than a spell, Draco. I feel like no matter what I do, I can't forget you."
"Y/n, I can change, let me love—"
"NO! No you won't, you promised once. And you broke it. You lied to me. You said it once more after that, and you swore, but what happened? You broke that, too. And you keep breaking it, and breaking it and breaking it, and I've had enough, and I'm tired but I... still love you," I said as I collapsed on the floor and buried my head into my knees.
"And the worst part is, you love me too. And all I want, is for us to be happy, together. I want us to do those stupid cliche romantic couple stuff, skip through the grass, pick flowers, go on dates, hold hands, kiss like there's no tomorrow," I sniffled.
Draco kneeled down in front of me, looking at me with his eyes filled with tears, almost looking like glass.
"But I refuse to do that with someone who betrayed and lied to his friends and killed our headmaster."
"Y/n..." he whispered. He held my hand and brought me up as we stood up together. He looked at me with eyes of guilt. I could tell he wanted those things, too.
"Y/n... I love you... so so much. I swore to protect you, and keep you safe and happy, and obviously I failed that. And I'm sorry," he said. He opened his arms for an embrace.
I hesitated to come near him, but I felt the want to. I felt myself walking towards him and into his arms. Despite knowing what he's done, I found comfort and warmth in him, like the feeling of coming home.
I felt my heartbeat start to slow down and relax. I've wanted to feel this way with him for the longest time. I slightly smiled and closed my eyes as I laid my head onto his chest. I could tell he was still crying because I felt his tears fall onto my hair and his hands shaking as they wrapped around me.
"And I love you enough to do this," he said.
"Hm?" I said as I parted from the hug. I was met with his wand pointed straight at me. I had no time to respond.
"Obliviate."
a/n: hii :) thank you so much again for the support. Sadly, the end of this book is coming near, but as a thank you for the amount of support this book has gotten, I want to do an entire book based off of a chapter from this book. Please let me know which chapter you'd like and I will do my best to make it happen.
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