Bastard No More

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    Greetings to anyone reading this. I hope you are fine and prosperous.

   The other day I went to see my elder healer/teacher about the current condition of my heart. I brought baby girl along with me, bcuz I needed her to witness for herself.

   Semaj has been worrying herself crazy lately. Every little thing scares her. She cries and cries and cries, saying she can't have anything happening to me or the baby. I just had to bring her along so my elder could tell her. I am okay; I am making tremendous progression with my heart condition, all due to simple living and loving.

   I no longer have the need to turn to cocaine when wanting to feel void from the world. Semaj and our family is all I need. I was doing way too much coke; I am ashamed at how much I became dependent on it. I only did that shit bcuz my life was missing a vital component: Semaj.

    My eyes are lighter, my health better, my body is in tip top shape, and my heart is full with love. Semaj teases me all the time that I'm getting finer than ever😏huh... don't know about all that, but I do know I feel fucking great to finally have her. The elder mentioned my handsomeness to Semaj and said something that made her and me blush as well😂

   Of course I still smoke my weed; hell, the both of us do. I enjoy having a permanent smoke buddy😂 but I prefer Semaj smokes with me during this pregnancy so she can have an appetite. Lately she's lost a lot of weight. This concerns me, bcuz it should be the opposite. I love my woman and I can't have anything happening to her or our little bun in the oven.

    My elder received Semaj wholeheartedly and made her feel comfortable. When I mentioned just how stressed Semaj has been lately, my elder had a heart to heart with her assuring her that all would be well. We just have to live and keep loving and appreciate this time in our lives. I know I can be a stubborn bastard but I won't do, or not do, anything that will cause my baby girl to frown ever.

   We had a most uplifting spiritual visit with the elder one. Before we left, Semaj was in tears, shaking and trembling in my arms. I held her close and tight to me, allowing her to release everything she needed. The elder one even suggested she scream primally and let go of all. Hearing my baby girl scream and wail made me feel some type of way but after it was over, I held her close once more and simply inhaled her.

   This woman is my fucking life. I will do anything for her, everything. She gave me Damiana, she allowed me into her other kids' lives, she's giving me this baby,  and she's given me my heart back. For that, I am truly grateful and prepared to love her for infinity.

  After we left, I took Semaj and the kids shopping and we went get some food for the road after stopping by Mother Dear's resting place. I always cry when I go talk to her, and Semaj was with me to wipe my eyes. I hugged her tightly, asking Mother Dear if she remembered how I always told her I wouldn't stop until I made Semaj my wife. A gentle, familiar breeze wafted over us and it felt as if Mother Dear was reaching me.

   Semaj asked me if I missed living in New Orleans. I told her I didn't, that the only place I needed to be was with her. She asked if I'd ever want to relocate back; I told her if she wanted to we could.  But on some real talk, I prefer our home on Dearborne. But if she wants another house, she'll have it. She'll have anything she desires.

   And speaking of desires,  I fucking desire the fuck out of my woman, my beloved, my intended. I don't care where we are, I'm kissing those lips mayne😂 and enjoying my woman.

   When I am on the road gigging, I ask Hassan to pop in and check on Semaj. She's told me that she doesn't need him coming around bcuz he makes her feel uncomfortable. I had to check him on that. He's my boy and I wish they could get along. I need to know the root of it all.

   I sometimes find myself just staring at Semaj's beauty. She is one magnificent creature to behold especially during pregnancy. She fucking glows it seems, her body with it's golden honey brown chocolate gleam to it, her beautiful nipples like my favorite silver bell chocolates. She's extremely comfortable to spoon and I enjoy rubbing her growing belly and talking to our little one in there. Heh, I even ask permission to invade his /her space😂and I always apologize ahead of time for what I'm about to do to momma😂😂🤣🤣🤣

    I'm happy. I truly am. My sadness comes from having to leave her for work or the road, plus I know she's letting little things get to her. It's a must that I see to her happiness.♥️

   I hate to be that bastard here but Semaj keeps my dick rock hard. Ever present, omnipresent. When I'm around her all I want to do is be sinking myself into her sweet chocolate body. She's incredible; the love we make keeps getting better and better and I'm here for it. I mean each and every time is spectacular. Semaj makes me cum so hard and so often that I know our baby is being well fed😂 Daddy does his best work in mommy😏😂