Bastard No More

wonders

   Blessings to any and all who happen to read this. Warmest wishes to all.

   This morning I awoke to my better half besides me and thanked Goddess for letting us all see another day. I kissed my beloved and rubbed her belly which storeths our sun.

   I've put Semaj under a lot of pressure lately, what with me revealing I'm to have a child with someone she's had static with in the recent past, plus with certain revelations which have been revealed, yet that woman still musters up enough love to wrap her arms around me and tell me she loves me.

   During one of our talks she revealed just how much she wished things would have been different then, wondering how they would be now. I told her what's important is that we're here now. Sometimes I feel that may not be enough for her, and that is my fault.

   For a man whose fought tooth and nail for her, for a man who sought and coveted her love, to have her in my arms without worrying, to end each day in bed with her, to finally make her mine, I have the most fucked up ways of proving myself to her.

   Semaj looked me in my eyes. There's always going to be other women who love you...that hurt my heart, bcuz I know it to be true. Her sadness overwhelmed me, and subconsciously something just made me reach for her. I pulled her close to me and made love to her. I had to. I needed to. I needed her to feel something, anything other than that pain and sadness. I needed to activate her beast, so she could take it all out on mine. I needed her to realize it was her I was in here making love to. I took and I took, and she gave. She soon took the reigns and did what she does to me, and I was in heaven.

   I've taken a few days off, as per Semaj's request. She says I work too much and that she's worried I'll burn out. I just like making sure my family will have what we need. But the time off will be enjoyed, bcuz I get to be under her and next to her and on top of her😏😁 plus I get to have time with my babies. Speaking of, I'm going to get Bria this Sunday. Saturday night I am treating my love to a Jon B. concert in Nola and I can't wait to show her off and have a good time.

   Today, I met my newest daughter's mommy at the doctor's office for her appointment. I'm honored she decided to share the experience with me. I truly am. I'd smoked me a blunt on the way going and was lit as fuck. I'll just call her Fig😏 was dressed really comfortably and she looked very beautiful with her glow. We hugged and she felt good, I won't lie. She always did.

   Mayne, being back in the OBGYN for a double dose of new arrivals again was a trip. But at least Fig doesn't have the same doctor; Semaj has the same one from when she was expecting Damiana, and Taz was going to the same one.

   Speaking of Taz...I don't know why her and Shantrelle both propositioning me these days. Ever since Semaj and I got pregnant, Shantrelle told me she wants a daughter from me. Now, after hearing about Fig, Taz has hit me up with let's have another baby. Really? Shantrelle never again. Taz has shown her ass repeatedly but she's changed lately. Still doesn't mean I want that with her.

   But back to Fig, she was trying her best not to stare at me😂 I told her she'd have to relax and look me in the eyes eventually. I'm not going to make things hard for her life, although her mere presence makes my dick hard. I shouldn't have said that to her tho😂 but it's true. She slapped my hand and told me to behave myself and act like I have some sense🤣

    I'm sorry, but I've been on one all day😏 Whatever manages my state of horny has awful timing. Sitting there with Fig, I had flashbacks of all the times we ducked off, flirting in plain sight of our peeps. It was exhilarating, the thrill of it all. It was like sitting next to your oldest dearest friend, whom you've had feelings for and have had plenty of sex with. I can always make her barriers and walls come crashing down, pun intended. I soon had her laughing tears as we reminisced about the time I beat the brakes off a dude who had tried her.