Bastard No More

9/12/03

       Warmest wishes to all.

      Eighteen years ago, my savior was born.

      My sun Daenarick turned eighteen today and I scooped him up early this morning and the two of us went do brunch at La Madeleine. We enjoyed mimosas😂 croissants, scrambled eggs, potato galletttes, avocado toast, bacon, and a fruit salad. Sitting across and looking at my reflection I'm still forever in awe at how much we look alike.

      It was a wonderful blessive feeling to see him with a smile on his face. My sun and I have been tighter than ever these days and I thank Goddess for our closeness once again. I thought I'd lost him😢 Seeing how we're both fathers-to-be, we can share all the excitement and everything that goes along with.

     Of course I had gifts for him. That's always gonna be. I gave him cash money as well. Whilst opening up one of his presents a young woman he knows came over and started chatting Daenarick up😏 Still ever the lady charmer him😂

     I thoroughly enjoyed our morning together. I would have liked to have made a day of it but Cash had something planned for him. I did ask them over for dinner.

      I also spent the day pampering my lovely wife to be. It's the least I could do. My goal is to alleviate any worries, pains, doubts, or misconceptions she may have.

    I always pamper Semaj but today was different. I didn't let her leave the bed once. I gave her leg massages, massaged her feet, rubbed her back down really good, massaged her neck and temples, every area of her beautiful pregnant body. I absolutely love lotioning her body down. Any chance I get to lay these hands upon her flesh I relish.

   Of course being so close to her kept me hard and of course she noticed. I love that amazing woman. She can melt me with a smile and build me up hard as stone with the same smile.

   I took care of the kids, which they must be the most well behaved children I've ever known. I'm thrilled to have gained a new son. We watched the Saints game together and my little dude really knows the game😂. He kept predicting the plays the Saints would make.

   After the game Semaj let me indulge in her sweet love, for a little afternoon delight 😏 My baby girl still isn't gaining much weight and this is concerning me. She does eat but the portions aren't full sized; she tells me she gets nauseated. Sometimes I feel the morning sickness along with her. I always try to make sure I have crackers on hand for her to nibble with her beautiful stubborn ass.

    Semaj and I have been talking about certain matters of the heart, and I can feel she is still devastated inside about ending her previous relationship. I understand that and I can understand why she's feeling so. When I ask her if she has any regrets she says she doesn't, that she loves me and wants to spend the rest of her life with me, but I can feel her. She's in pain for causing pain. She and I are way too much alike in this way. She should know I know her by now. She is feeling guilty bcuz of our affair and she feels bad when she looks at little one, who looks exactly like her father, long hair and all.

   Honestly, I don't know what to do sometimes. I love Semaj more than anything else in this world but I hate being the cause of her pain.