Just A Troubled Mind Looking For Peace

Tonight

Will it kill you even a little bit
When you learn I died tonight
Would you understand the silent plea
That was going through my mind

I've wanted this for a long time
I hope you remember that
Of all those times we talked
I hope you remember that

Will it please you in the least
When you learn what I did last
Would you understand the message
That was written by my hand

It said:

This was for all the secrets I kept buried deep inside
This is for the freedom that I'll finally realize
What is it like not to be scared of your shadow
(I'd stay up all night to find out, lights out)
How it feels not to be left outside the know

Oh, it read

This is for all those tears I shed
Every memory in bed
For all those books I read
And still couldn't not be me

For all my family issues
For every word I wrote
For every artistic strokes
For all the stupid hope

This is for every friend that left
For every boy that couldn't understand
For everyone that pushed too hard
For all those hidden scars

For every blasted song
Every time, I sang along
For every sleep I had dreaming
Everytime, still morning

For every drug I tried
After all, what's the point of escape
If you have to come back
Every time

I wont say I'm sorry
For committing this crime
But I will say sorry
That I couldn't fix my mind

It's hard when you can't name
Not even to yourself
What exactly is hurting
Just that it hurts like hell

2/24/2015 @2.45pm