Just A Troubled Mind Looking For Peace

That One

I'm great at getting emotionally close to people

But once sex is approached I'm out

It all goes back to childhood issues

The ones I'm not supposed to talk about

It makes relating to others hard

But I've gotten used to awkwardice

As long as I'm not talking about myself

I can laugh and joke about

Relationships are impossible

I've been single for years

I had already found the one

But broke it off because I got scared

It's not that he pressured me

Or even wanted a kiss

But I was scared about what was expected

We were only twelve year old kids

He was the most innocent

Didnt know what a tampon is

Why did I ever think

That he was anything like him

Michael you are my love

But you hold another's hand

I'll have to be content to live

With your happiness instead

He'll never know why I pulled away

And though we're still great friends

My true reasons will remain hidden

I hope he's happy till the end

We're both about to graduate

Twelve seems so long ago

I wish I could tell myself

"Never let that one go"

Secrets suck...and time only makes them harder to tell...