After Rafe and I left at midnight, I didn't want to go home straight, because I had to clear my head about what happened just an hour ago and that's why we decided to take a walk on the beach.
Maybe it wasn't the right decision to leave with Rafe but at this moment I didn't want to stay there. Everyone looked at me guilty, and the party was totally over after John B told the group about what happens between me and Rafe.
It was quiet between us till we reached the beach. I didn't know what I should say or do and to be honest, I didn't feel like talking. I just wanted to cry my eyes out.
Maybe it would be better if that all didn't happen with Rafe but maybe that's exactly what is meant for me.
One thing that crossed my mind was Rafes cautious. I couldn't recognize Rafe tonight. There was no trace of the otherwise selfish, bad-tempered idiot or the guy who was always high.
He was different. He was handsome.As I already said, we didn't talk. We walked along the beach after parking the car behind the dunes and I felt the water on my feet every time a new wave washed up, the cold breeze on my skin and the lights of the moon in the water calm me down a little but. It made the water shine and it looked like glitter.
It looked magical, and right now I missed watching the stars with Sarah on the roof, because the sky was so clear and you could see every little star.
My head was a mess right now. I didn't know what I should feel about all of that. My head would explode in every second.
While we walked on the beach, I started to get nervous and to wonder if what I was going to do now was right.
The more I thought about it, the more I realized how my tears started watering and how the tears left my eye. Maybe I didn't want to ask him that, but maybe it was necessary to clear my mind a little.
»Do you think it's the right thing what we're doing here right now, Rafe?« I said and stopped walking. I couldn't look at him. I was scared about his reaction and that I would regret what I just asked.
Well I didn't want to do that, but maybe John B was right, and he's going to hurt me one day. I am scared about the feeling.
He also stopped walking directly after I started talking to him and before he turned around he put his hands in his pockets and looked at me shocked but I couldn't really place his skillful look. »Maybe« he said in a rough tone.
»This is the only thing you got to say?« I asked with knitted eyebrows and disappointment wavered in my voice. »Yeah. I guess«.
I didn't know what happened to the handsome guy right now, who showed up at John Bs hut, but it wasn't to be expected now, that he would be so handsome for a bit longer.
»So you're playing the big guy now?« I started to get a bit mad and started walking faster. »Are you fucking kidding me?« I asked him after he didn't answer me.
»God, Gracie, I don't fucking know« he answered and he started to go in the other direction. I started to walk after him and I almost had to run, because he's walking so fast.
»Earlier this morning, you fucked the shit out of me and-« after trying to start the conversation, he suddenly turned and we bumped into each other.
»You're right. I-« he pointed to himself»-fucked you, because I own you« he continued his sentence and whispered it while he tensed his jaw.
My breath got heavier after this sentence but I didn't want to show him my weakness. God, this man knows how to do it and he's always catching the right time.
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fear love¹ | rafe cameron
FanfictionShe doesn't believe in love and he doesn't know how real love feels like. how sweet it is to be loved by you. - rafe cameron ! I don't own any of these characters apart from Grace Shoupe and there could be grammar mistakes, please ignore them publi...