fear love¹ | rafe cameron

twenty-two

The sun came out from behind the horizon and made the sky glow in the most beautiful pink tones. Seagulls flew wildly around. Individual boats docked at the harbor honked and the waves crashing on the surf against the stones. All these sounds were magical.

That was outer banks and I was for a hundred percent sure, that I never want to leave outer banks.

With my comforter and a big cup of tea, I stood on our terrace and enjoyed the beautiful view. »You're up early« a calm voice said. Veronica closed the door to the terrace quietly behind her and stopped next to me. »I didn't get that much sleep« I bit my lips to suppress a sob.

How should I be able to sleep with all that is happening around me at the moment? My head was full and I had the feeling that every moment a bomb would explode in my head.

The last few days, I had to think about everything so much and never paid attention to myself or listened to my feelings. I'm overwhelmed and most of all I wish that all of this had never happened, that Rafe and I had never happened.

»A heartbreak is terrible« she broke the silence and I looked at her in confusion. When I just opened my mouth to ask her how she knows what is with me, she already answered.
»I know you and Rose knows him. Anyone with eyes and a little sense of love knew you two were together« she explained and took a sip from her cup.

»We were never together. We were nothing« I said, staring into my cup of tea, which reflected the sky in a variety of colors. It wasn't a lie after all, that we were nothing.
For him, I was a simple fuck and I fell for it. Yesterday, I had the feeling that everything could be good between us again, until he flipped some switch in his head and threw me out of his room.

»How do I know that I'm in love?« I asked my stepmom and looked at her as she grinned. »You don't know, you feel it« she answered.

»I think I messed up« I burst into tears. I was in love with a person I thought I knew, but I don't know how to deal with him, what to do or how to treat him. It all seemed so simple before I heard the conversation with him and his friends.

Veronica opened her arms, I put my cup on the small table on the terrace, and I padded over to her and wrapped my arms around her body. »Give him time« she murmured and kissed my head.

After we stood on the patio for some more time and I was able to calm down and laugh a little again and after a while we went back into the house and she made breakfast while I took a shower, packed my things and put on my bikini under my clothes.

At 10 am starts the second surf lesson but before it starts, I wanted to go surfing alone to get my mind free. I ran down the stairs highly motivated, grabbed some toast, slathered it with strawberry jam and said goodbye to my dad and my stepmom.

Again, I walked past the fishing in the harbor of the Heywards, Pope's family, and snuck up on Pope, startling him.

»Holy-« Pope yelled and turned around and almost hit me in the face with his fist if I hadn't dodged. »Careful« I laughed and we hugged after he recognised me.

»What are you doing here so early?« He asked, looking at his wristwatch. »I wanted to go surfing before the surf course starts, do you want to come?« I looked at him with a grin and winked my eyes, knowing that he would go surfing with me on the beach.