Quick reminder: If you want, you can listen to the song out of love from Alessia Cara while you read the chapter.
I felt a cold shiver run down my spine and goosebumps form all over my skin.
What did he just say? I repeated and again in my thoughts. My body started to shake, not because I was cold, but because everything I had built up in feelings for Rafe collapsed.My pain from the wound was secondary. I had this feeling throughout my body, this feeling of being crushed and not being able to find a way out. I didn't know what to do with myself and my emotions at that moment.
Nothing he meant was real.
The butterflies in my stomach turned into cramps.
All that we did was just a game for him, and I meant nothing to him. Absolutely nothing.
I was one piece of evidence for Topper and Kelce that Rafe had someone easy to fuck.
I had the feeling he was different with me than with other people. Like he was really showing me who he actually was.
A side that no one knew except me, but it was apparently all just part of the purpose to be able to fuck me and I didn't notice, because I'm stupid.
I hadn't even noticed until now that I had been holding my breath the whole time because I was so focused on not making any noises, that they would not hear my weeping and sobbing.
I leaned against the wall again and swallowed hard. I felt my eyes fill with water again and the first tears found their way down my cheek.
I had the feeling that I was about to explode. I wanted to scream so badly, but I sighed and held my hands in front of my mouth again to suppress any sound from me. I would have loved to break everything around me.
I was always convinced that love doesn't exist, and that's exactly what Rafe just showed me.
That was exactly the reason why I don't believe in soulmates and love. There is no such thing as real love. Love is a description of people hurting each other and going their separate ways in the end.
I wiped away every single tear that rolled down my cheek with my hands and tried to calm myself down, which didn't work very well.
»Does she come to the bonfire party tomorrow night?« Topper asked, and I bit my lip to suppress my sobbing and to understand everything in the conversation.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to hear more of the conversation, but something inside me made me stop as if I had two concrete blocks on my legs.
»I hope so, I got big plans with her« Rafe said proudly, and I heard him chuckling.
»What are your plans?« Topper asked Kelce.
I wasn't really listening anymore after he said that he got big plans with me.Everything around me faded and I stared at one of the sculptures on the dresser until I heard my name and listened intently again.
»I'll get the deputy's daughter« Kelce said and laughed.
»Grace? I think she is taken. She was seen on the beach with a guy. They were looking at the stars, super cheesy« Topper said.
»I don't care, she's super hot« Kelce continued, but I heard nothing from Rafe, he was quiet.
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fear love¹ | rafe cameron
FanfictionShe doesn't believe in love and he doesn't know how real love feels like. how sweet it is to be loved by you. - rafe cameron ! I don't own any of these characters apart from Grace Shoupe and there could be grammar mistakes, please ignore them publi...