fear love¹ | rafe cameron

twenty-seven

»Rafe?« I called out his name to bring him out of his thoughts when I noticed he was staring off into the crowd somewhere, not listening to me at all.

Just as I was about to turn around to see where he was staring and what was keeping him from listening to me, he pulled me out of the crowd by my arm and dragged me behind him without any regard for me.

»Rafe, I can't keep up with you« I called out to him completely out of breath, but I got no response.

We walked deeper and deeper into the small streets until the music could only be heard muffled and also the strings of lights, which hung from house to house became less and the street lamps were the only lights that illuminated the street a little and made it appear visible.

»Damn it, Rafe!« I said angrily as I refused to go on and shook my arm out of his strong grip.
He walked a few more steps until he stopped, but didn't turn around.

»What was that about?« I asked, running to him and I stopped in front of him to wait for his answer. »Never mind« he replied, staring at the ground.

»God Rafe, don't be so selfish now and tell me what your fucking problem is« I said irritably before taking one look around to orient myself where we actually were.

We were standing in the middle of a small street on cobblestones, on the sides were high apartment buildings, with small balconies, the small stores were closed and lanterns illuminated the narrow street a little.

He cleared his throat and rubbed his hands through his face, then ran his hands through his hair, which was wet from rain.
»Tell me why you pulled me away from there or I'm going back« I threatened him, looking deep into his eyes.

»If you go back then John B and Sarah will see you« he explained and now I understood why he pulled me away. »Oh« I said insightfully.

Kind of weird to have to run away from your best friends because they weren't allowed to see you but that's the way it is. I knew he wasn't running away because of Sarah, but because of John B. He was the problem.

My head was rattling and I was thinking about how to even tell my best friends that Rafe and I were somehow back together. I was afraid of how John B would react and if he would ignore me again.

It was still raining hard and all of a sudden it was thundering so loud, I thought the storm cloud was right over us.
I winced pretty badly that I almost thought I had tension in my neck now.

»Can we just go home then?« I asked, starting to shiver all over from fear and cold.

Without waiting for Rafe's answer, I turned around and followed the path on the side of the street. In the street, the street lamps became less and the street became darker and darker.

On the way back I stayed quiet, so did Rafe.
I didn't know exactly how to think about the whole situation and what to say at all.

Did I want, what was between us, to remain a secret?

We walked along the road, near the marsh, sometimes I balanced on the edge of the roadside, while Rafe walked in front of me, staring at the ground most of the time, not saying anything.

When I opened the little gate and walked along the walkway to the porch of the little shack on the cut, Rafe was already sitting on the bench with his head on the back of his neck, staring at the little glasses that always lit up at night and hung from the roof, rocking back and forth from the wind.

I unlocked the bulky door and through the power generator the lights worked and the lamps lit up the rooms.

I took off my shoes and put them on the shoe rack in the storage room. Through the corner of my eye, I could see from the window that Rafe was still leaning against the wall on the bench.

I pulled on the loop of my dress, which untied the knot and I was able to take it off. It slid off my body and fell to the floor in front of my closet, then I pulled on a pair of tight sleep shorts and a shirt that was way too big.

»Are you coming in?« I asked in a quiet and calm tone, leaning my shoulder and head against the door frame. »Yeah« he cleared his throat and sniffled before standing up and walking past me without any gesture or anything to say.

I locked the door before sneaking into the bedroom and watching Rafe.

He was sitting on the other side of the bed in boxers, pulling his white shirt, still quite wet, over his head and tossing it onto the old leather chair next to the bed.

Rafe sat there shirtless, his defined arms, the veins that went all the way to his hand, clearly visible, the gold ring on his index finger and the pronounced abs. Every little detail on him I watched very closely until he turned to me and I quickly looked away and ran to the other side of the bed.

»Do you like what you see?« he asked and I noticed how my cheeks were glowing and I was probably completely red in the face, because he noticed that I was staring at him.
»Maybe« I answered provocative.

I drew the curtains, closed the open windows, hoping not to hear the storm too well this night. So far it has been pretty quiet over the Island but that will change this night anyway and then I won't get a wink of sleep.

As I sat up on the bed, I looked at Rafe, who was still sitting as he had just been.
I decided to crawl over the bed and put my arms around his torso from behind and make a trail of kisses on his shoulder up to his ear, which made him grin.

»I would never let anyone hurt you Gracie« he said in a raspy low voice and I stopped kissing him at his shoulder. »I know that« I mumbled and put my head on his shoulder and hugged him tightly.

»I never felt that way about anyone« he continued and for a moment it was so quiet again that you could hear the light pattering of the rain on the roof.

»Neither did I, Rafe« I said softly and only a few seconds later he turned around and put his hand on my hip, gently pressing me into the soft mattress and with his other hand he propped himself up next to my head.

»You don't know what you're doing to me« he grinned dirtily and I pulled his head towards me and let our lips melt together.

»Oh, believe me, I know exactly« I mumbled and he pressed me even more into the mattress and started to leave my mouth kissing from my ear down along my neck until he used his other hand to carefully pull up my shirt, which was his that he had left at my place this morning and had been under my bed until just now.

»Do you like that?« he asked and I said yes.

While he made the trail on my body visible with his kisses, he gently sucked on my skin.

I felt Rafe's hands on parts of my body that I didn't even know my body craved his touch so much.

A slight moan escaped my lips and I laid my head back in my neck »I didn't know you were so sensitive« he said and I pinched my fingers in his hair.

»You're driving me crazy«
»Oh believe me I know exactly« he repeated my words and as he looked up he grinned at me and looked deep into my eyes.

While he carefully pulled my panties off my legs and kissed up along my thigh.

What a night.

Little Note:
I have so much planned for the book and I'm excited to share it with you. <3

Have a wonderful weekend and stay healthy.
Lots of Love, Ally xx