fear love¹ | rafe cameron

thirty-eight

As the sun disappeared behind the horizon and the first stars lit up the sky, I walked my best friend Sarah to the door.
»Will you text me when you're home?« I asked her and in response Sarah gave a thumbs up as she closed the garden gate and ran off.

I turned on the bathroom light and ran the bathtub full of water while looking out of the box for a nice smelling bath bomb.

As the bathtub filled with water and the foam floated over the edge, I threw my clothes in the wash and got into the tub.

I leaned my head down and closed my eyes. Everything, really everything flooded my head. Every thought, every single moment with Rafe flooded my head.

I held my nose, closed my eyes and slid my body forward a little to be underwater with my whole body.
I felt the pressure in my lungs increase and the desire to gasp for air grew but my mind forced me not to do that. I felt like someone was pushing me down by my shoulders.

I jerked my eyes open underwater when I heard my ex-boyfriend's name.
»Rafe Cameron. What can I do for you?« I heard my dad pale.

I held onto the edge of the bathtub, pulled my body out of the water and hastily gasped for air.

»She's upstairs but don't do anything stupid« I heard my dad say.
»No I won't. Thank you, Sir!« said Rafe and a moment later I heard him running up the wooden stairs.

I got out of the tub, drained the water and looked for a towel or something to put over it but only found a small towel that went just over my butt.

»Great« I whispered to myself as I looked through all the cabinets in the bathroom and found none.

I took a deep breath and turned the doorknob and walked on tiptoe as quietly as I could to my bedroom door, which was open a small crack. Peering through the small open crack, I saw Rafe standing in front of the window, gazing up at the clear dark starry sky.

Quietly and carefully I opened the door to my room, but the door creaked open and Rafe turned around and we both looked deep into each other's eyes.
»Hey« I said softly and grinned uncertainly, not quite knowing how to act.

»Hey, Gracie« he called me by my nickname and licked his lower lip as he looked me up and down.

I ran over to my dresser to grab some underwear out of the drawer and as I pushed my drawer shut with my hip to run to the closet and grab a pair of pants and a top, Rafe was standing behind me.

I looked in the mirror above the dresser and felt Rafe's warm breath on my shoulder. Goosebumps formed all over my body within a second. He manages once again to have control over my body in such a short time.

Gently and with full care he started kissing up and down my shoulder. His soft lips touched my still slightly wet skin and I inhaled deeply.

Rafe put his hands around my body and I leaned my head against his as he looked up and we both looked at ourselves in the mirror.
»I missed you« I murmured and smiled carefully.
»Me too« he said back in his raspy voice and silence fell. We both didn't stop staring into each other's eyes.

With each passing second the eye contact became more intense, my body craving his touch even more. Be it his lips on my body or the hands that rested on my hips.

Rafe kissed me on the cheek and I turned to him and wrapped my arms around his neck, letting the tip of my nose touch his. »I'm just trying to do everything right« he said and took my face in his hand and pressed his lips to mine.

»I know, I know« I stroked my thumb over his hand that rested on my cheek as we stopped kissing and leaned our foreheads against each other.

»I'm so sorry« he apologized for everything, but I interrupted him and kissed him briefly.
»Don't apologize, you tried to do everything right« I explained to Rafe.