Wangxian - The Road Not Taken

1. Death

People say that I'm evil,
Probably even the worst thing that they had the misfortune of meeting.

People say that I'm always planning something,
Beware and stay away.

People say being with me corrupts others.
So hide away.

People say I'm evil, arrogant, vain, evil, ungrateful, hateful, evil, monster, and did I mention evil.

Such words can be ignored if tried, but if heard again and again, for years, it only strengthens your belief that you are all those nasty things. Especially, if you already don't view yourself in the best light.

After witnessing the deaths of my guardians, my sister's husband, my second family, the Wen remnants – my second family, Wen Qing, Wen Ning, little A-Yuan, my beloved sister. All of which were caused by me.
Tell me, how can I not be called evil.
Tell me, how can I not be Evil itself.

I am a talking, walking disaster and anyone who has the misfortune of being close to me gets affected and has to bear it along with me.

Feeling that it will be better that I end this with me, I decided to end my life, even then my love, my Lan Zhan refused to let go of my hand and let me fall to my death, even when he was so heavily injured, with blood soaking his clothes and by link dripping over me.
I may never be able to admit it but I have always loved him with all my heart, late to recognize it for what it was and hesitant to confront him and later, circumstances were not in favour.

How can I bear to cause my love this much pain.

So, when Jiang Cheng, my younger brother, stabbed the rock with all his pain, anger and hatred, causing the rock to crack and dangerously close to collapsing, I made the final push and jerked free my hand with the last of my remaining strength.

I hope that my death would at least lower the number of problems that I have caused for them, for him.

But would he let me just die and leave for a peaceful life no matter what I said?

In that heavily injured state that he was in, he took me back to Burial mounds, my home, and tried to nurse me to health, but I wasn't able to handle the reality.

The pain the sufferings that I caused. I am really a curse for everyone around me.

How can I let him be near me anymore!

"Get Lost", were the only words that I could utter.
Lan Zhan please leave me and go. I can't bear to see you face any worse fate than this.

He gently laid me on my bedding, "Wei Ying, we are safe now"
"Get Lost"
Why don't you understand, you are not safe as long as you are with me

"Don't worry, you'll be fine" he tried to comfort me, hand petting my hair.
"Get Lost"
I don't care if I'll be fine, all those people that I killed, are they fine?
Will they ever be fine?
Me!
It's me that has caused this destruction.
It seems all that I am capable of doing.

He kept passing on his spiritual energy to me, even though he was also barely hanging there. How can I tell him there is no use.
No use in passing me any spiritual energy at all.
What a waste!

"Get Lost!"
Please save it for yourself Lan Zhan

"Wei Ying, please be okay, I love you", his voice cracked.
"Get Lost"
Noooo it can't be! Lan Zhan don't love me; how can you love this walking disaster.
You should be running away from me, protecting yourself, not foolishly giving away your heart to me!

Thankfully Zewu-jun and Master Lan came to take him away.
Away to safety.
Away to heal.

Now I know what I have to do. I need to end the root of the problem, so I decided to destroy the most desired object in the cultivation world, Stygian Tiger Seal, the object that caused destruction, some look at it with disgust, some with apprehension, some with despair, some with greed. None able to ignore it.

How can I let people take it!

It would just cause more destruction. This is my repentance for the devastation that I caused. It would not ever be enough for everything, but maybe, just maybe, once it's no longer there, once I am no longer there, everything can start getting better.

And so, I focused all my remaining strength to it, causing it to break apart with a loud explosion. Taking away my life, my soul with it.

Not even leaving my body behind.

In my last moments I could hear them.

A-xian, come I have made lotus rib soup for you

Wei WuXian! always causing trouble

Wei WuXian, A-Li is waiting for you for our child's first month anniversary celebration

Extremely boring

It's not a pity at all! You can have as many as you want.

Take care of A-Cheng and A-Li

Choose a name

Wei-Xiong!

A waste of food. Don't pick up your chopsticks. No need to give him the face for it!

Why, why did you have to become a hero and save him, mother was right, you always cause trouble

Wei-gongzi, if you believe in me, I can rescue you

I want my mother and father back

If I plant and water, will I get more friends?

If you insist on doing this, I won't be able to protect you anymore

Come to Gusu with me

Get better after some sitting around? Did you think I'm dead?

Thank you and Sorry

3 is too old, xianxian is 1 year old

Wei wuxian, go to hell

Wei Ying, I love you

I wish things could have been better

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I wish I could have been better

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I wish I had better control

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I wish I could have done more

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I wish we could live peacefully

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I wish I was not a curse

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I wish

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