Ben
I woke up to a knock on the door from Dr Saye, "Come in".
He opened the door, "Morning".
"Morning" I smiled.
"So you've officially been awake for two weeks and starting to heal a little bit. How do you feel?".
I took a second, "Better. It's stopped hurting as much".
"I meant with your mental health stuff" Dr Saye laughed a little.
"Oh, fuck, yeah I guess," I laughed a little also, "Good. I'm still a little tired, but I feel good".
"Glad you're on your meds?".
"Well I'm not happy about that fact I need them, but I feel good. I'd go as far as to say I feel normal".
Dr Saye smiled, "I'm happy for you Ben. Everyone in your family doing good?".
"Yeah. I know it's been hard for Ty, but his boyfriend is back. I know he's doing really good. Jess has been having her own life problems, the kids think I got into a car accident. Mac has gotten quiet. Usually she's full of joy".
"Do you think it's because of you?".
I thought about it for a moment, "I mean she was thrusted into this family, and then all of my shit went down".
"Want me to talk to her?" He asked.
I didn't answer.
"I'm gonna get going. Anyone coming to visit today?".
"I guess we'll see".
Dr Saye left, and I was alone again. I kept trying to draw. I kept getting frustrated. All I wanted to do was draw like I could.
I cried a lot because of how frustrated I was.
Aaron
I finished my meeting with my therapist over the phone. It went well, and I feel very good about life. Ty slept through it. We were out pretty late last night together, but I had never felt so alive.
I decided to go to the hospital to visit Ben. I needed some advice from him, and I feel like he's the best person to talk to.
I took a bus to the hospital, then took a smoke break before I went in.
It's cold out today. Summer is here, but it still had to be cold. Probably the last day for a couple months I'll need a jacket. I took the little box out of my pocket as I smoked. Inside was a thin silver band, there were two of them. One was underneath. I had a plan to propose to Ty today. I needed him to know I was committed.
Then I went into the hospital.
I saw Ben inside drawing alone. I knocked on the door.
"Come in".
I opened the door.
Ben looked at me, "You?".
"Me, just me" I shut the door and sat down.
"Where's ty?" Ben looked confused.
