favorite liar | jegulus

thirty

james had never been this whole heartedly happy and content with his life before. he had his gang of marauders back. he had his wonderful regulus black. and he had hogwarts. everything was picture perfect, what more could a boy his age need let alone want?

previously, he had only felt this way when he was soaring through the sky on the quidditch pitch. that unmistakable and also unexplainable peace never found him anywhere outside of the game. however, now it followed him everywhere. he felt it in his laughter at sirius jokes, in regulus soft kisses, in remus brilliant prank suggestions, in peters bright smile. he was finding happiness everywhere

and yet, it felt wrong. it scared him. was this right? should this be happening? is this a sign of impending doom? he did his best to shake it off. he vowed not to worry himself sad; not yet

"lovely morning, eh?" sirius stated as he entered the bathroom as jame was brushing his teeth. sirius quickly tended to his bed head while james responded, "lovely is an understatement."

"whats got you in such a cheerful mood?" sirius asked a small smirk on his lips

"i dont think you want me to answer that," james answered with a slight cocky grin

sirius nodded, "forget i asked."

"done"

james put his toothbrush down heading for the door leaving the bathroom all to sirius and his reflection. he threw on some clothes and yelled by to the boys as he raced out of the dorm then put of the gryffindor commons completely

once he made it outside of the castle, he headed for regulus and his favorite spot; their tree. the tree where it all began practically

"morning love," regulus smiled as james approached him

"how is it that you always beat me here?" james asked taking a seat next to him

regulus's smile grew, "just quicker i suppose."

james leaned in to give regulus kiss but muttered, "prat," seconds before their lips collied

"beat you to that," james added

"and im not going to complain about it," regulus stated

with a long exhale the raven hair boy shifted to lay in james' lap. he snuggled close to james and let his eyes fall shut

"you alright my love?"

"just tired"

james' hand aimlessly twisted regulus hair around. it was an action of pure habit, almost instinct now

"not sleep well?"

"more like a mental tired. i sleep fine and for a long time"

"common, talk to me"  james urged

regulus face grew pale not from fear but out of panic. james could feel his breath quicken and his heart begin to race. what has him all worked up?

regulus let out a deep breath regaining his impeccable composure. "i think i just bit off more than i can chew this term. nothing major. no need to worry jamie"

a lie. thats what that was. it was whole sentence worth of shit

"youre lying to me reg. common theres no need for that"

"its not a lie james," regulus snapped sitting up. "im im over my head. i cant do it."

"cant do what," james asked cupping regs face in his hands

"im so sorry james" reg whispered. "im so sorry"

"sorry for what" james pleaded

"for agreeing to help dumbledore get leverage on the dark lord. i thought it was the only way i could help but," he paused his voice leaving his throat

regulus couldnt say it. he physically could not explain it all to james

"has something gone wrong? are you in danger? is he after you?" james himself didnt know if he was asking if dumbledore or the dark lord was after him. all he knew was regulus was terrified and that was a sure sign of danger

"i think the dark lord— i think hes made horcruxes. and if im right, we are screwed." regulus managed

"and i dont trust dumbledore anymore," he added

not trusting dumbledore? how could you distrust the man? james could not believe what he was hearing. but this, this was not a lie

"why not?"

"he let this all happen. its all his fault"

"love youre hysterical. youre not making much sense. are you sure about all this?" james asked sternly

"i swear it. i swear it on my brothers life"

james' heart sank. here is the very doom he has been anxious about. damn his intuition. would he ever get to be wrong? can the happiness not last?
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a/n: i am incredibly sorry for disappearing for so long. i completely lost inspiration to write and i had to get grip on my own mental health before i could attempt to write again. but here is an update while short should hopefully get me back into this story and able to see it through to its end. i love you all for the continuous support these past few months in my absence. it means the world to me