one person can change everything

chapter 12 Alex

Sobbing all the way back to lonans but his car was already parked up earlier than I thought he would be home. I let myself in and the warmth smacked me in the face, his coat was hanging over the banister and his case was by the stairs. I grabbed a glass of water and noticed the gym lights were on. Trying to contain my sobbing and breathing I walked outside, there Lonan was working out, music was loud and he didn't know I was back. Working out punching the punch bag hard and harder every time in his grey jogging bottoms only, the sweat was running down every muscle he had. I opened the door and his tensed looked relaxed as he held the punchbag.

"Whats happened?"

"Clare.... my sister.... she's having Richards baby" I sobbed and blurted out. I couldn't contain the pain I was feeling.

"What?..." I felt him hug me but cautiously... I pulled away from him quickly feeling embarrassed I'm crying again.

"Lets go inside" I sat on the,bar stool and he pulled a t shirt on..

"Right tell me" his words were soft

"Clare today... told me Mel is pregnant.... but Clare accussed me of Lying " tried not to cry again

"Have you not spoken to your sister? Lying about what?"

"No... not for couple years... don't plan too either...." tears streamed again down my cheeks

"Dont cry we will sort this..." he hugged me

"How?"

"Dunno but we will... let me go get dinner yeah" he soon disappeared

I opened the texts from Richard and not one did he say sorry, it was all about him. I have nothing and he's right with that..I couldn't feel anymore hurt or heavy heart by clares words.

lonan later disappeared up to finish off some work in his office. I felt so cold and lonely, I rung mum again to which she answered, unaware it was late I instantly felt guilty for calling late.

"Mum..... Mum it's me Alex.. sorry... Yeah sorry for ringing late... i... I didn't realise the time but I need to speak to you.. . Yeah mum everything fine...... actually no everything isn't fine.. I know about Mel.......... Yeah and I know who the father is........ No it's RichArd's..... Yeah..... Mum... Mum listen to me....... Mum.... stop..... I've left Richard... Mum he's left me with nothing..... nothing mum, taken everything.... at a friend's. No not clares... Yeah can I come up tomorrow... love you too mum.... Mum...... thank you for not telling dad... love you too... bye"

Like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders happened as I put the phone down. Felt good to actually know ill be able to sleep tonight. The light was peeping through the office door which was at a jar, I knocked and went inside seeing him relaxed in the chair was a small lamp on and paperwork everywhere covering his desk.

"Hey.. just wanted to say night"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah.. tired for first time in ages"

"Hopefully you'll get some sleep."

"You still can't be working"

"No just reading my solicitor letter."

"Ohhh.. ill leave you"

"No no wait...this weekend what plans you got?"

"Going to go see my mum"

"Oh good..."

"You?"

"My dad's surprise birthday... did you want me to drop you on my way?"

"I can drive but thank you anyway."

"No worries.. night"

"Night lonan." I walked away and climbed into bed. Knowing the disappointment in his eyes that pulled my heart strings. He's been so good to me and even though we aren't great friends I trust lonan more than I would have ever thought..