one person can change everything

chapter 16 alex

I spotted Lonan walk outside with his arm around his brothers shoulder, I knew by Lonans body language something wasn't right. It had been a while and they still hadn't come back inside, I went to the toilet before going to look for them outside.

There he was standing outside on his own with his phone in his hand and other gripping a beer. he's a image or what many men could only hope for. tall, big beautiful eyes, defined muscles, chiseled jaw line and hair so perfectly in place. and on the added note the car the very nice car.

"Hey... everything okay" I walked over carefully

"Hey.. Yeah yeah... just sorting something out for my brother." He twitched his face & with his phone in his hand. He looked worried, upset even.

"You sure your okay.." I asked again

"Yeah... I'm good.. Can I have a cuddle?" he pulled me into his chest for a hug.. we just stood there embracing yet clearly he was the one who needed to be held, he breathing was quick & his expression was tight.

Everyone was starting to leave the party slowly and I could see his mum starting to clear up as I sat with lanon and others talking. I tapped his leg and said

"Your mum needs some help... Come on.." I pulled him to his feet. He knew he had no choice in the matter but help us.

"Okay anyone up for food or drink" Mary offered as soon aS we got in and we all declined.

"Lonan your staying aren't you.?" Mary asked with thAt hoped tone

"Yes mum.. but I need to go sleep." His started yawn

"Night darlings"

"Night mum" Lonan kissed her head and started going upstairs.

"Night Mary"

"Good night sweetheart.." I followed Lonan up and entered this small but sweet French style room, white furniture, white metal bed frame with luxurious pillows all neatly placed on the bed.. little glass trinkets placed on shelves, picture frames too. Lanon pulled his jacket off and laid it on the Victorian chair in the corner then started removing the pillows.. he looked distracted was it because I was here, we kissed today and we hadn't spoken about it all.. was he regretting kissing me.. instantly I felt worried and nervous.

"Lonan.." I managed to say trying to be confident . And not shaky voice

"Yeah.."

"Are you regretting earlier kissing me..."

"What.. No what would I be.." he tossed the last small round pillow to the floor as he moved quickly to me.

"Why would I be" he said again, his face was tensed just how I was feeling.

"Just you've gone quiet.."

"No.... I just trying to figure out some things"

"What things "

"Nothing for you to worry about... look im pleased your here.." he cupped my chin and kissed me, it felt like my heart skipped the beat, his warm touch was soft.

"You have nothing to worry about" he was trying to reassure me

"Alright.."

"Come on let's get in bed... bloody shattered." He kissed my lips and stripped off. To see this image of Lonan, his physic made me go weak at the knees, the light caressed every muscle and toned body. Unable to believe I'm here with him, a man I always known but never ever known him like I know him now...

"Want the bathroom" he pulled up his joggers and held his tooth brush

"No.. you go.." he kissed top of my head as he walked by. I got changed, slipped on a t shirt and my bottoms, wiped my make up off and brushed my hair, Lonan came in, rubbed up behind me placing his arms around my waist.

"Hey I'm brushing my hair" I giggled at him tickling my neck

"Alright..." he gave me cheeky wink then climbed into bed. I disappeared to the toilet to brush my teeth when up came Mary.

"Night darling" Mary said softly to me, I smiled back and noticed she saw the bruises on my arms. I quickly pulled the sleeves down and Mary gave me a reassuring squeeze on my arm. Then disappeared into the bedroom.

"Your mum.." I said

"What?" He smirked at me

"Umm .she saw the bruises.."

"Dont worry about it..."

"But she's going to ask now isn't she?"

"No... stop worrying...get in bed and come here" he pulled cover back for me to climb in and into his arms for lots of cuddles and kisses.

Laying in his arms while he slept was the greatest feeling, watching his chest rise and falling quickly while his arm was across me. wondering and thinking about today I stroked his arm. his aftershave was still lingering.

"Night babe" he mumbled at me
"Night Lonan" I replied and he pulled me even closer to him