The consequences of a collision ( Girlxgirl Teacherxstudent )

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The whole class comes in and finds their place. Except for one, I don't see Kate among them. I'm just about to leave the classroom to see if she's still somewhere in the hallway when she walks in. We are face to face. “Sorry Liesbeth I had to go to the bathroom”. That girl really gives me a special feeling inside. I feel I meself blush and I see that happening to her too. For a moment I can't say anything. “It's all right. Just sit down and be on time next time.” I say quickly, when I've recovered a bit.

My intention was actually to have a conversation in English with the whole class. But I'm a bit confused so quickly think of something else. “You introduced yourself a little this morning. Now I want you to introduce yourselves in English a little more extensively. I Want to you to written at least three quarters of a page full”. I think they like that, at least they start writing right away. I'm just going to do some planning on the computer. Not that I can really focus on it, but it sure seems like I'm busy. I look up to see if everyone is still busy. The first thing I see is Kate staring at me. It makes me feel good. I quickly finish something on the computer.

“Okay ladies and gentlemen, hand me your paper here. Until the bell rings, you can work on your homework." It amazes me at the first stories how open some students are. The level is also good. There are very few errors in the lyrics. Now I have Kate's paper in front of me. It's empty, only her name is on it. I look her way. We have eye contact right away. She understands why I'm watching. I can see her saying sorry. I wonder why she didn't write anything down. Not that it surprised me. She had her eyes on me for most of the time. I would like to know what's going on in her head. Maybe I can help her with something. I'm startled when the bell rings. “Before you go, I want to say something. The planned trip to France, which would be in a few weeks, has been moved to later this school year." I'm not sure if I would take the next step. I would like to have a conversation with Kate, but maybe I'll put her on the spot with that. “Kate I would like you stay a little longer”. I notice that I don't dare to look at her reaction.

Once everyone else is gone, I close the door. So we can talk in peace. I sit in the chair next to Kate. “Why didn't you write anything down? It wasn't an difficult task after all." I put my hand on her knee to reassure her. She blushes a little, but doesn't seem to mind. I just pretend I don't notice. "I do not know. I just couldn't write anything." She say shyly. "Luckily, at least you remembered your name." I say laughing and luckily Katw can laugh about it too. “But otherwise I would have known it came from you. Your eyes weren't really on the paper." When I say that I see that she is a bit startled. “You were staring straight ahead. Is there something bothering you or is there something I can help you with?”. With the thumb of my hand still on her knee, I rub lightly. She seems to be calm down again. “No, there is nothing special. I think I need get used to school again." She looks at her table all the time. I can see from her whole attitude that there is something wrong. I'd like to help her. I would like to make that clear to her. I take her gently by her chin and turn her face to me. I want to say something, but I'm speechless for a moment. I'm staring straight at her now. She touches me deep inside. I get hot and feel my cheeks turn red. Which also happens to her. It takes me a while to find my words. “If there's anything wrong, know that you can always come to me. Whatever there is”. She nods and I sincerely hope she does. "Okay Miss". “Liesbeth and now make you come home. I do expect the next lesson that you still hand in your story to me. I'm curious about your story." She looks at me a little surprised. Perhaps I could have been better said differently, but luckily she doesn't go into it because of how I said. “I promise Liesbeth. Have a nice day or is there anything else I can help you with? For example, pointing the way”. We can both laugh about it. “No thanks, but if I need help I know where to find you”. Then Kate leaves the classroom. I sit in the classroom for a bit longer. I'm not doing anything wrong yet. Emphasis on yet. I find it hard to stay professional when she's around me. Especially because I have the feeling that I also give her a special feeling. No idea if it really is or if it just seems that way. I know almost nothing about her. I don't even know if she likes girls at all. I hit myself in the head. It doesn't matter. It can never become anything and must let it go