Nalu Oneshots

Jude's Funeral

 What is Lucy was present during her father's funeral.... little angst sorry, not sorry.

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Lucy's POV: 

The day after we returned from Tenrou Island, I quickly received word that my father had very recently passed away. His funeral was today, and I walked, feeling the weight of everything on my shoulders. Natsu, Gray, Erza, and Happy walked by my side. 

"It's here."

I took a deep breath, "Okay. Let's go." I lowered my head and opened the door. My stomach fell to the floor because it was an open casket. I started shaking, and I felt like my knees were going to give out. Natsu grabbed my hand and squeezed it tight. I looked at him, and he smiled softly. There weren't many people except for the people he worked with.  I sat down, and the service continued as they buried him. 

The rain began to pour, and like that, it was over. I was asked to make a speech, and I said I couldn't. Many of the workers told me that he talked about me all the time. My breath hicked, and we were leaving. I told the crew I was going home for a bit. 

Natsu told the others he would walk me home, and Happy went with them. In tears flooding my face, I walked back to my house, and Natsu had an arm on my shoulders, keeping me steady. I left Natsu outside my house and thanked him for walking me home. He wiped the tears from my eyes and hugged me.

"Are you sure you're okay to be by yourself?"

"Yeah, I'll be okay. I need to be alone." I chuckled softly and headed inside.

I entered my house and saw the gifts and lost it. The room started spinning and my knees gave out. I started having a panic attack on the floor. I couldn't breathe and my tears and mind raced as if they competed with each other.

At the funeral, the reason I could not speak out was that I barely knew him. I spent years locked from his presence, and in his presence was only fear. 

I felt relief when I ran away and stood up for myself.  I wished he loved me. Maybe he did somewhere in his heart. He was greedy, manipulative, and self-centered. 

I heard the window fly open and slam shut.  I heard a muffled shout and footsteps running towards me.

 No, please don't see me this way. 

I made myself small and felt strong arms pick me up. My body shook, and my lungs burned heavily. I covered my face, and Natsu placed me on my bed and laid me down. 

"I'm sorry, please, I can't stand to be seen this way. I can figure this out myself. Please leave." I wheezed.

"No. You are in no condition to be here without me. You always have done things yourself, but now you don't have to. Trust me, okay. Close your eyes."

I removed my hands from my face and looked up at him, and took a staggering breath.

"O-okay. I trust you," I replied as I closed my eyes.

"Deep breathes, Luce, fill your chest and stomach, now hold and release." I matched my breathing, and I felt myself calm down a bit. 

"Good. Now think of a good memory and picture it in your mind. Relax your muscles, and it's okay. I'm here." It took about 10 minutes and entirely calmed down. I sat up and hugged Natsu tightly and snuggled into his chest, and fell asleep.

Natsu POV:

Lucy passed out on my chest and just seeing her so much pain made me want to cry. She never spoke of her dad until after Phantom Lord. I changed her into her pj's and left her quickly to go change.

She was still asleep when I came back and I cuddled into her. She breathed slowly and melted into my embrace. I kissed her forehead gently and she smiled. After that, I fell asleep with her in my arms.

I woke up and Lucy was staring at a letter. Her hair was wet and was sitting in her bathrobe. She had gifts opened and a letter in her hand. She also had the box of letters she wrote to her mother opened as well. She placed the letter in the box and closed it shut.

I sat up and put my hands on her shoulders, "Good morning." I smiled.

"Morning." She said softly while hanging her head in shame. I hugged her and she looked at me with puffy eyes.

"It's okay to not be okay."

"I know. I wish I could've-" She sighed.

"I know. I know. It's okay. " She smiled slightly and slowly got up. 

"I've always been so independent and I never needed anything from him or maybe because he never gave me any affection to the point I focused on being independent and ran away." 

"Sometimes that happens with people, they change in a second's notice and never return to the way they use to be."

"After my mom died, he shut me out and wanted to use me as some sort of a business arrangement. He wanted me to marry a man I never met and used force to get me to come to him by harming fairy tail. But at the end of the day, he tried to become better and realized his former self was selfish and changed."

"I guess he had a lot of time to reflect and without anyone." 

"Karma I guess. But I never hated him but he was such a shitty parent."

"Yeah, he was but in the end, we know that he loved you but took too long to realize it."

"Yeah." I put my hand on her cheek and wiped away her tears and kissed her on the forehead. 

"Thank you for listening and being here." 

"Of course, always." I smiled and Lucy went to get dressed. After she got dressed I grabbed her hand and we headed off to the guild.