Whole Heart | Izana Kurokawa x Reader

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Izana and Kaku slept on your room that night before they finally leave the city to go to Yokohama. The details about their release from the orphanage was a secret and Izana told you that it was only because the people there are getting tired of him and Kaku. You just laughed at that but you knew there was probably a deeper reason behind that. If Izana chose not to tell you about, then you didn't bother and ask. You trusted him and you knew he'd never do anything bad that will endanger Kaku or you.

Izana was sitting beside you, holding your hand as his head rested on the side of your bed. He's sleeping now but you're still wide awake so you just brushed his hair. Kaku was on the couch, sleeping too. Your eyes rested on Izana's face, he looked so calm with his eyes closed. This sight made you smile because you knew Izana told you how he always had a hard time trying to sleep. 

When Izana moved a little in his sleep, you hummed to relax him. But his lips formed as smile as he held your hand that's brushing his hair, moving it to his cheeks. 

"Why are you still awake?" he whispered, his eyes slowly opening.

"I can't sleep" you answered with a smile.

Izana reached for you cheeks, caressing it while looking at you warmly. 

The first time he looked at you with such warm eyes was that day you woke up after your first attack. He saw you vomiting blood and crying in pain. That was the time you thought you'd die. Izana was crying and begging you to not leave him. He was almost dead when you won't wake up for days. Kaku couldn't do anything to make him eat or sleep.

 And when you finally woke up, his eyes were different. They were suddenly the most beautiful and the warmest thing you've ever laid eyes on.

Ever since that day, Izana would always wear those loving eyes every time he looks at you. 

"I won't leave you... I may be going away, but I won't leave you..." he said, never taking his eyes off of yours.

You knew that. And that truth keeps you going.

"I know." you closed your eyes as you tried not to cry. You don't want to hold him back by letting him see you cry.

You knew how he is every time you cry. You remembered that time you were crying because of the pain you're feeling, it affected him. Your pain was his too. He would be so angry and release his frustration on any other thing because there was nothing he can do. 

Izana knew you're sad and so he got up and rested his forehead on yours, as he cupped your cheeks. 

"You're my whole heart y/n... Always remember that. Believe me, I will come back for you... "

Your tears fell as you hummed and smiled at him. Izana smiled too as he closed his eyes, staying in that position for quite a while. Your scent, your presence, everything about you, it calms him down. It pains him to leave you too, but he knew he needed to do something, he needed to be stronger and gain more power to save you. He wanted to be with you for his entire life, and so he needed to go. 

"No matter what happens, I will always be with you..." 

Izana was holding back his tears too. He was so scared of losing you while he's gone. he can't help but worry too but there was nothing he could do. You were the first person who he felt a warm connection to. 

That time he saw you, helplessly lying there unconscious, he wanted to protect you. When he found out you had nothing, no memories and no family, he wanted to stay with you until he dies. And when you held on to him, he dedicated his entire life to you. 

You became his whole heart and his' became yours.

"Please wait for me, okay?" he whispered.

Izana knew how bad your condition really is. Even thought you act like you're doing good, he knows that you're suffering deep inside. He would always talk to your doctor about it and so he knew every detail about you. 

Izana doesn't have any real fear before. He wasn't scared of anything, not until he knew you. He's scared that one day, he might not have someone to come back to.

"I will..." 

He kissed your forehead then stared right back at your eyes. His eyes that held so much emotion. Each of them connected to you. Every single one of them gives you hope. Those were now the reason why you're doing your best to survive. The reason why you keep enduring the pain.  

Every reason was Izana. 

Little did you know that Izana was silently crying as he held you on his chest. The both of you slept with tears on your eyes. Your heartbeats in sync as you slept in each other's arms.

As you two were finally sleeping, Kaku woke up. He saw you and Izana, sleeping peacefully. He got up to put blanket over you both. He smiled sadly as he saw that there were tears on both of your eyes. He knew how Izana loved you and how you loved Izana. He can't help but tear up a little as he looks at the lovers who just kept suffering. 

'I'll protect the both of you with my life...' he thought to himself as he drifted to sleep too.