Whole Heart | Izana Kurokawa x Reader

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"Are you sure?" Ran asked Izana again.

Izana has spent the past week contemplating about his decision. It took him this long to finally do it, to finally tell you about his selfishness. He decided that to be able to really protect you and love you, he needs to be honest. He doesn't want to keep things from you anymore.

"I am now." he said, a serious look on his face.

Ran nodded as he looked down at his feet. The terrible feeling that runs in his stomach kept going as he thought about how you'll see them now. He knows that he doesn't deserve to be seen as someone he isn't, someone clean and pure, but to be honest, it feels nice for him. Rindou thought about the same thing, they all did.

The fantasy of being someone clean, even when they're not. It's like when they're with you, it feels like they're just normal people. People with a family where they feel loved.

As serious as Izana may look, deep inside he is hurting. He's scared, terrified, to tell you how horrible he is. He's scared that you'll see his sides that he's been hiding ever since. Sides that even the deepest parts of his heart is terrified of.

He's scared that his words "You have my whole heart" was a lie. It's a lie because he hasn't been honest with you.

All these years, he's been lying to you. The thought of that terrifies him to the core. He thought about how he hated lies, but he's actually been the biggest liar he's known.

Now that everything he's ever done terrifies him, he thought about how much he doesn't really deserve you. Because, how could he actually deserve you? How could he claim you as his Queen when his title "King" was gained through blood and life?

"The idea of deserving someone by one's ideals is unfair. Receiving and giving love is not bounded by a person's ideals." Kaku said as he stood beside Izana.

"Love isn't like that." he continued.

Izana had a surprised look on his face, Kaku read him. Kaku knew what he was thinking.

"Stop denying yourself of love when the heavens already gave you one that's only for you, Izana."

Kaku gave Izana a reassuring smile as he walked towards their motorbike.

"Let's go, she's waiting." Kaku said as he looked back at Izana's frozen figure.

For the very first time, Izana realized how clueless he is of love. And he wondered how Kaku knew all of it and how come he didn't? But putting all those aside, he looked down on his feet with a smile of relief before walking towards Kaku.

"Let's go." he said with a tone of determination.

At the penthouse, Izana kept sighing as he walked closer to your room. He would occasionally look back at Kaku only to realize that he isn't coming with him to you. He gave him a strange look but then Kaku returned the same expression.

"What? Do you think I'd go with you? No, I'd deal with the after." Kaku said quietly.

"What?" Izana whispered back, frustrated.

"This is  something that you have to do yourself." Kaku said "Believe me."

With another defeated sigh, Izana agreed. He can't believe how scared he is right now, how unsure he is, how terrified he is of words. But everything's alright, he thought, because it's you. It's with you.

His hands kept forming a fist as he walks towards your door. His heart is beating hard, and he feels a different cold in his insides.

Kaku was standing on the far corner of the living room, and gave Izana a nod, reassuring him that he can do this.

"thank you." Izana mouthed.

Kaku grinned wide as he waved Izana towards your room.

And with a determined sigh, Izana opened the door.

There, your figure suddenly appeared and it immediately melted all the fear Izana had. With a smile on your face, you extended your hands to him, reaching out for your lover saying

"welcome home."

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