"Are you mad?" Ran asked Izana right after the incident of the sudden attack.
Izana's head was resting on the side of the bed where you laid unconscious. He wasn't responding, he hasn't even spoken yet since he got you home. The only time he talked was when he called the doctors regarding you.
Ran wasn't worried about Izana hating him, he hated himself too for what had happened. He just needed to ask because he wanted Izana to blame him, and not himself. He wanted to put the blame to himself because he was responsible for it.
At this point, everyone was blaming themselves. What happened was on everybody's shoulders.
Even Rindou was silent. His thoughts are a mess. He cared for you and now that he did something that led to your worsened condition and danger, he blamed himself so much.
Izana remained silent as Ran was standing at the door, hesitating to leave. He wanted to leave but couldn't. He wanted to see you and care for you as well, but he thought about what he caused you and the guilt is making him believe that he doesn't deserve to be with you.
Ever since that day, the Haitanis hasn't visited you. They haven't even attempted to ask Izana about you.
They were still guilty.
Despite Izana telling them it wasn't their fault, they couldn't take it off their chests.
"She's asking about you both." Izana quietly said as he was standing next to Ran after their meeting at the Tenjiku headquarters.
Ran paused. He stopped breathing for a second.
Slowly, Izana turned to Ran with an expression he couldn't read. It was new to see Izana look like that.
It was the look of loneliness.
"I plan to tell her everything." Izana said.
"Everything..." Ran whispered. He knew what that meant. He knew that Izana meant Tenjiku and it's entirety.
Rindou who was standing behind Ran, looked at Izana with evident questioning in his eyes. He thought about the damage that plan could do.
Deep inside, he was scared that you might hate them. He was scared that it might make you angry at them, which is ofcourse beyond understandable. Who wouldn't hate what they are and what they do?
"I'm done being selfish." Izana whispered with a faint smile on his lips.
"All of the things that's been happening to her, it's all my fault. I bring danger to her." he continued.
"It's not-" Ran tried to speak but Izana smiled at him.
Nothing can change his mind. He believes that he's the very reason why you were always in danger. His entire being is the reason why people are after you. He thought of himself as a selfish person, trying to get everything when he already has you.
He talked to Kaku regarding this matter. He asked if it was the right thing to do because he doesn't want to mess things up even more because he believes he already did.
Both Ran and Rindou was quiet, still processing what Izana just said. They were both lost in their thoughts that they didn't realize Kisaki was observing them from afar.
But from the very corner of Izana's eyes, the image of Kisaki was clear. He's got his eyes on him from now on, not letting him plot anything else but his very own death.
Later that night, you were left alone at the house with Kaku. He was busy with some paper works that you didn't dare bother him and decided to stay at your room.
As you sat on the balcony, the cold breeze gently touching your face, you thought about the future. You thought about the endless possibilities. The good and the bad.
It was scary, the uncertainty. It was scary to think that nothing is certain, especially your condition. It was tiring to think about the sad parts of your life, but there's nothing you could do when you're left alone with your thoughts. Only when you're alone were you allowed to let everything sink in and let it swallow you. Only when you were alone were you allowed to be scared and to be weak.
Because you didn't want Izana to see you weak and scared. You didn't want him to worry like he wasn't already.
A light knock on your door came and Izana entered the room with a smile. He was holding a bouquet of flowers and went immediately to you, giving you a forehead kiss.
"I missed you my Queen." he whispered with a smile.
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Author's Note: Hello! I'm (kinda) back lol. How are you all? I hope you're doing fine! (◍•ᴗ•◍) I decided to write again because i felt EXTREMELY HAPPY when i saw the tokyorev spoilers and so i caught up with the manga ehe (◕દ◕) anyways i hope you're all in good health and happy! i missed writing for you and me! (*˘︶˘*).｡*♡
Ps. I can't say I'm 100% back but I'll post when I can (~￣³￣)~
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Whole Heart | Izana Kurokawa x Reader
Fanfic"I'll always be with you... because you're my whole heart." You've been left alone since you were born and you're suffering from a chronic illness. Despite all of that, you found yourself deeply inlove with the man, Izana Kurokawa, who's always bee...
