Whole Heart | Izana Kurokawa x Reader

4

That morning Izana and Kaku left, you hugged them as tight as you could. You memorized their scent and the warmth of their embrace. You smiled at them as bright as you could while wishing them the best. But the moment they left, you cried.

Your doctor came in to comfort you because she knows how heartbreaking this must be for you. She knew how much you love them, she witnessed everything. And before Izana left, he talked to the doctor, saying he entrusts you to her.

That night, you cried yourself to sleep as you started to think about everything. You trusted Izana and Kaku but you just can't help but feel like a burden. You hated yourself because you can't do anything for them and you can't be with them. You're stuck in this hospital and it makes you feel weak as if you aren't weak enough yet.

For the next few days, you trued to distract yourself by going on walks to the garden. You tried to read books and write letters that you're never going to send out. You just wanted to keep yourself busy or else you know you'll cry again because of those horrible thoughts haunting you.

Two week have passed and the two still didn't send you letters yet. You're starting to feel anxious and worried. And because of that, you started getting your symptoms back. From time to time, you vomit blood, especially when you're too stressed. You kept from the doctor because you're afraid she's going to inform Izana and Kaku about it. You didn't want them to worry and make them come back here.

Despite your best efforts to hide your condition, the doctor noticed. Of course she would, she's been taking care of you since and she won't be a doctor if she can't see your symptoms.

"You've been vomiting blood again, aren't you?" she asked as she puts nasal cannula on you again because you're having trouble breathing when you lie down.

"Please don't tell them..."

She smiled sadly at you and adjusted you oxygen tank.

"I won't, don't worry. But please tell me about what's going on with you. Not just about your illness, but also about your thoughts."

Your under eyes are now a little dark because you can't sleep properly. Your skin has gotten a lot pale. And your cheeks are red and sensitive.

You were clearly in pain but you kept denying it because you're scared. You're scared that Izana is not here to calm you down. He's not here to say everything's alright. He's not here incase you die and you don't want that.

"I'm scared..." you whispered.

Your eyes are barely open, because of how tired you are. You didn't even do much today, but your body is exhausted.

"Why?"

"Because... If they find someone, something, they might not come back. They might forget about me..."

Your tears started falling as you tried to take a deep breath.

"No, that's not true. Don't think like that."

You smiled a little at what she said.

You know that it's probably not true that they will forget you since Izana told you he'll come back for you. You trust his words more than anything else, but there's a part of you that knows he deserves better than this. He deserves a life without worries. You knew that his entire life, he's been suffering and you knew that maybe right now, you're the cause of his suffering too.

The doctor kept saying things but your mind can't seem to process anything else right now. As you cry and your body got more and more exhausted, you drifted to sleep. You just wanted these thoughts to be gone. 

Little did you know that the doctor informs Kaku about everything and Kaku would rely it to Izana. Your doctor knows that only Izana can calm you down and she's worried that your condition will worsen over time. She can never let that happen. So everything that happens to you, she reports it to Kaku.

Kaku just received the text from your doctor and it made his heart skip a beat. He looked at Izana who's now busy with Tenjiku's meeting. He wanted to tell Izana right away but the meeting was in the middle of appointing executives so he decided to tell him after. He knew Izana well, he won't think twice about leaving this very moment when it concerns you.

They are now in Yokohama with the gang Tenjiku that Izana just built. Because of his over powered strength and charisma, he managed to gather all the other strong delinquents and made them the Heavenly Kings of Tenjiku. He plans on taking over the underground of Japan.

You know nothing about this thing. Sure Izana told you everything about his life, but he didn't tell you about the gang part. He kept it from you because he didn't want you to worry. He knows that you'd be stressing over it no matter how much he assure you. He can't let your condition worsen just because of him.

Izana has always had a gang even before he built Tenjiku. He was the 8th gen leader of Black Dragons during the time you got close to him. He lied about the fact that he was still in the orphanage around that time. But the truth is, he and Kaku left the orphanage years ago. To be exact, 2 years after you came to the hospital. He pretended that he was still in the orphanage because your condition during those times was dangerous. Besides, he never really wanted you to know anything about his gang in the first place.

After an hour, Izana dismissed the meeting and sat quietly, his thoughts somewhere else. His red coat and his hanafuda earrings was being blown by the wind. Ever since he left you in the hospital to be here, his face was never gentle, it was always cold and his eyes are vicious. It's like he's a completely different person when you're not beside him. Because you are his whole heart, when you're not with him, Izana nothing but a killing machine.

"Izana, her symptoms are back." Kaku said as he approached him with a serious face.

Upon hearing those words, Izana's eyes were furious and worried. He stood up and ran to his motorbike, leaving the other heavenly kings there. They called to him because they thought there was something wrong. Their King seems to be mad about something all of a sudden and his panic was shown on his eyes. 

"Boss, we'll go with you." Ran Haitani, one of the Heavenly Kings, offered as he stood up.

Izana didn't even look at them, his thoughts are now on you. He needs to get you as fast as he can. He needs to see you. He drove as fast as he can, Kaku following from behind and the Haitanis on rear guard. 

When they got to the hospital, Izana ran to your room. The Haitanis are confused as to why they're in front of a hospital. They were expecting to be somewhere like a gang fight. They turned to look at Izana but he was already inside. 

"Stay outside." Kaku told the Haitani brothers when they got to the hospital.

 "What's in here?" Ran asked as he leaned on his motorbike, Rindou on his other side.

"The Queen." Kaku asnwered before following Izana inside.