Want

Chapter 17

They weren't joined this time, it was more of a weird separation but their bodies were in the same place. Jac's eyes opened that morning, she was tired and more importantly, she couldn't even bring herself to touch Kian. It was as if there was this forcefield around him, one that if she was to go past that barrier she would become hysterical with tears and sadness. It was when Kian placed a hand on her shoulder, she gulped slightly willing her body to react in a way that she was happy with and that would make Kian ultimately happy but she flinches away, got up and then headed to the bathroom. Right now she just couldn't deal with it and Kian wasn't going to give up that easily not after everything.

"Hey" he whispers wrapping his arms around her from behind, she smiles slightly as he nuzzled into her neck "Did you sleep well"

"No" she shakes her head, he didn't sleep well either and he knew it was because they weren't lying in each others arms "You?"

"Snap" he responds and she nods slowly stepping out of his embrace, she walks to the shower and turns it on, undressing in front of him, she steps into the warm water and Kian frowns, he removes his boxers and then follows her into the shower

"Did I say you could come in?" she raises her eyebrows trying her hardest to suppress the laughter that was teetering on the edge of her tongue

"No"

"Well then..." she trails off and Kian doesn't take no for an answer, he watches Jac turn around and look at him, he walks towards her and she pushes herself up against the wall, he bends down, using his tongue he runs it up between her breasts causing her to moan softly "Stop this"

"Do you want me to stop?"

"Yes...no...I don't know...no?" she frets and Kian pulls away from her to look into her eyes, they were wide and he brushed his fingers over her cheek, she raised her hand to place it over his, both of their hands fall and their fingers link together

"It's ok," he says quietly walking his fingers over her hipbone, she closes her eyes and breathes out "I'll stop if you want me to"

"I'm so confused" she admits and Kian nods, she gulps and grabs hold of his penis, he winces at the speed before moaning in pleasure at her hand moving in tandem, he drops his head to her neck and she moans softly, her eyes hooded as he removes her hand, he holds her up against the wall using it to prop her up and in one motion he pushed into her "Oh my..."

"Beautiful" he brushes his finger over her cheek, she throws her head back and the water cascades over her skin as he moves in and out of her at such a gentle pace her body was being tipped over the edge

It was when she got close to that edge and Kian was pleasuring her, his fingers caressing her clit and her mouth emitting soft moans, the water was dripping down both of their bodies. When her eyes open she froze, Kian was nestled in her neck lapping up the rivulets of water that were there, sucking on it like he was some vampire. Her body was tense and Kian was trying to get her to that edge but she just couldn't. He pulled away to look at her in the eyes, it told him nothing but emptiness and he was confused. His heart broke and he slid out of her causing her to slide down the wall and sit on the floor of the shower as she let out heart-breaking sobs.

"Jac?" he questions, she shakes her head and jumps up grabbing a towel as she went, she rushed out of the room and Kian sighed tiredly before following her

"Just don't ask me anything" she warns him and he looks at her face, the tears that were dripping from her eyes "I just..."

"You don't have to explain" he sits down next to her, placing a hand on her leg that was covered by the towel "I just want to help you"