Want

Chapter 20

Overwhelming emptiness filled Jac's still body, there was no Emma around nor was there any Kian. He was being off with her. She didn't know why, maybe it was the strain of clinical lead taking over his life, she didn't really blame him. Who would want to be around her anyway? It was this niggling thoughts in the back of her mind that overtook her life just like the unknown entity that was taking over Kian's. Everything hurt, not just her mind but her body, she was tired, her legs ached and her arms ached. Maybe she was too old for having rounds of endless sex. Endless was a thought too far, she wished it was bloody endless then all she could feel was Kian's body, which was better than feeling her own thoughts and acting them. Unfortunately, she couldn't have what she wanted or needed in this case, the thoughts would just have to make do. That's when the overwhelming sense of happiness overtook her body, that's when she realised she could still have Kian even if he wasn't here.

This is Kian's phone-

"Fuck you annoying voicemail lady" she mutters, she was irritable, maybe she could surprise him at work, that made her happy until she realised there would probably be security guards at the door and as for Hanssen there is no way he would let her step foot in that hospital again

Jac huffed, she was annoyed, her body still ached either for Kian or the need to fuck him but she couldn't, he wasn't there for her to do that. She hated herself for feeling so needy but the need for sex numbed the thoughts just for a while. She always wondered if he felt the same, at least he had the distraction of work and she envied that but fuck, she needed him right here right now.

This is Kian's phone, leave a message and I will get back to you

"Madani get the fuck back here, I need you" she pauses before frowning "It's Jac by the way"

That last comment was stupid, of course, it was her, who else would it be. She shuddered at the thought of someone else fucking him whilst she was. No, that was a recipe for disaster, would he be cheating on her, or would he be cheating with her, yuck, that was messy. It made her want to throw up.

Beep, beep, beep

"Kian" she snaps down the phone and smirks to herself

"Wrong person" Fletch's voice rings down the phone and she grunts in annoyance "Sorry to disappoint"

"Can you tell Kian to call me-"

"He's not here"

"What do you mean he's not there?" she seethes and Fletch's audible sigh on the receiving end of the phone call pissed her off further "He literally said-"

"Well, he lied to you Jac-"

"If I find out you're lying I will kill you" she snaps and Fletch groans in annoyance at her attitude

"Bye Jac" he ends the call and she slams her phone down on the sofa, she gets up and paces the room for a bit, she groans and then runs upstairs to get ready chucking whatever she had dry on before storming out of the door to her car with no understanding on where to go from here, either way, she would figure it out...

-CS-

Of course, fate took her to the hospital, she snuck in through one of the back entrances and headed up to Darwin. She was hardly dressed for the occasion, uncharacteristically in a hoody and baggy joggers but she guessed she was grieving for Kian and the need for him to touch her. She was sat in the office tapping her fingers on the arm of the sofa. She had convinced herself that Fletch was lying to her, that Kian just didn't want to see her. Soon enough she got bored of all that and she headed to Fletch's office, barging in and he groaned knowing she shouldn't even be on the hospital premises.