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Chapter 6

After emptying her stomach contents into the toilet Meredith went to the sink and washed her face with cold water. She felt her hands shaking as she dried her skin off with a paper towel, and for just reason, she'd almost killed a patient, a fifteen year old girl who was just starting out in life. And she could have ended that life, she felt tears well in her eyes and needed to find something to calm her, so she could focus on finding out what was wrong with Katie, and fix what she broke. She leaned against the sink and reached in her pocket for her blackberry. She managed to sign onto the chat room and crossed all her crossables that he was there...

DASH109: Didn't expect to see you here right now.
MEG216: I could say the same for you.
DASH109: To what do I owe this pleasure?
MEG216: Cute, but I'm having a bad day...and for some reason I needed to talk to you to calm down.
DASH109: Well I have to confess I am here for the same reason, let's start with you, what's wrong?
MEG216: I made a mistake.
DASH109: We all make mistakes.
MEG216: My mistake almost hurt someone, like really badly hurt them.
DASH109: Will they survive?
MEG216: For now...
DASH109: As long as their heart is still beating Meg, they have the glory of a second chance. Just go with that and make the best of it. Learn from it, and don't make it again.
MEG216: I'm afraid to even try anymore.
DASH109: That's the worst thing you could do. You have to climb back in the saddle so to say.
MEG216: I know, I just feel like everything and everyone is against me, I'm battling an army.
DASH109: Well I'm on your side, so that's one person.
MEG216: True...one tiny half a person who lives in my computer/phone.
DASH109: Er, thanks!
MEG216: Sorry, that was mean. I'm not normally depressed like this.
DASH109: I know, I'm sure you're a very bright person in real life...on a good day. Just like the rest of us.
MEG216: Thanks Dash...so what's going on with you today?
DASH109: About the same thing really. I had an employee really mess up, and it could have cost me and them too. I hate seeing someone ruin their career when it's only just started. Especially when they show quite a bit of talent.
MEG216: Yeah, my boss was a little...no, a lot, hard on me about my mistake.
DASH109: Well as a boss I can say he probably just wants to see you do better.
MEG216: He must, because he's making me fix it. I don't know where to start though.
DASH109: You sound like a smart person, just start where you think you ought to.
MEG216: That's the thing, it's a mystery. I have no idea where to even begin looking for a solution.
DASH109: Look for the obvious, it's usually out in the open when everyone is too busy looking too hard for the unobvious right?
MEG216: Maybe. I'll see what I can find.
Meredith heard the door to the bathroom slam open and looks up to see dark angry eyes staring her down.
MEG216: Gotta go, ttyl!

***SIGN OFF***

"Oh great, talking to your mommy about what you should do now?" Christina scoffs "I'll bet she can pull you right out of this one."

"No." Meredith mumbled while slipping her phone into her pocket "I'm fully capable of cleaning up my own messes. I've had to do that all my life."

"Sure." Christina mutters under her breath "So are we going to work on this or not?"

"Yeah, I was on my way to the library."

"You can't just call your mommy and ask her?"

"No." Meredith narrowed her eyes "I know it's hard to believe but my mother's had nothing to do with my success, I like to earn it myself."

"You really expect me to believe that?" Christina laughed.

"You can believe what you want to believe." Meredith muttered, "I'm going to the library to find out what's wrong with Katie."

They both went down to the research room and looked through book after books, sitting down the aisle from each other with stacks of textbooks strewn all around them...

"Think obvious, think obvious." Meredith mumbled to herself.

"If it were obvious we would have seen it already." Christina muttered "Or I would have anyway."

Meredith rolled her eyes "If it weren't obvious we would have found it, we've been looking for hours, and nothing's hit us yet."

"Yeah, so?" Christina grumbled. Meredith thought about what she'd just said and squinted in thought and then looked over at Christina long and hard "What?"

"Katie got hit in the head."

"By her baton from her stupid gymnastics thing." Christina scoffed "That's not going to cause a brain injury."

"No." Meredith shook her head "But what if she had an aneurysm."

"We've already checked her for that."

"But what if she had one anyways."

"Meredith." Christina sighed "You heard Shepherd, don't bother him unless it's something worth bothering him about...actually why don't you go bother him, he seems to like yelling at you."

"Well it's better than sitting here on our asses looking over stuff we've already looked over." she said standing up.

"Whatever, it's your funeral."

Meredith ignored her and walked out, she heard footsteps soon following behind her, apparently curiosity got the best of Christina. She looked around the floor for Dr. Shepherd but couldn't find him anywhere, and then checked the OR board.

"You'll be dead." Christina mumbled "He'll literally kill you."

"He already wants to kill me." Meredith shrugged "So what the hell."

"You know I don't like you, not one little bit." Christina muttered "But I have to admit you have some balls."

Meredith smirked to herself as she headed to OR 2. She walked into the scrub room, Christina tailing behind her. She grabbed a scrub hat and tied it to her head, tucking her ponytail underneath and then tied a mask over her face. She walked into the OR and the surgeon standing over the table looked up at her.

"Oh this better be worth your career Grey." he scowled.

"I think it's an aneurysm." she said.

"We already checked for an aneurysm the scans came back clean, now go look again and don't bother me in the OR again!" he yelled.

"What if she has one anyway. What if the scans didn't catch it the first time...we were in a hurry."

"Dr. Grey!" he hissed "Are you telling me that I overlooked something, that I, an attending, head of the department made a mistake! Are you telling me I'm not doing my job properly."

"Not at all sir." she gulped "I just think sometimes we look too hard and miss the obvious."

Derek blinked a little and his eyes calmed "It's an expensive test to be done for a second time."

"It's worth it sir." Meredith replied "It's better than not doing anything and watching her die over something we missed."

Derek tightened his eyes and stared at her for a long moment before letting out a sigh.

"Order another one."

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