2gether AU: Stay, be Still

Chapter 15: Stay, be Still

CW: NSFW
And with a feeling I'll forget, I'm in love now 
Kiss me like you wanna be loved 
You wanna be loved, you wanna be loved 
This feels like falling in love 
Falling in love, falling in love 
- Kiss Me, Ed Sheeran - 

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Tine's POV

8pm.

I drove back home at the speed of light, my heart clenched in agony as I imagined how Sarawat would be spending his evening alone.

Probably just looking at the window while playing his guitar nonchalantly.

My hands shivered in nervousness and fearfulness as I struggled to unlock the front door. The tip of my key clashed at the sides of the keyhole, it took me a few tries to insert my key properly.

Idiot, f'ck myself.

The living room was pitched black, only the soft moonlight pouring into the living room, outlining the silhouette lying motionlessly on the floor.

I thought something bad had happened to Sarawat, I felt the demon in me threatening to take over my senses.

I could feel the adrenaline rush in my stomach, all my five senses were at their greatest height.

The rhythmic thump in my chest was accelerating and my thoughts were close to derailing.

Sarawat, love, I'm back.

I flicked the switches on, seeing Sarawat's body curling like a cat on the soft carpet, right beside the couch.

A few empty bottles of beer pooling beside his hands, the long-forgotten, extinguished candle still standing there by itself.

My heart bled at the sight of the untouched vanilla cupcake on the coffee table.

Sarawat's face was blotchy. Clearly, I've had enough evidence to know how broken my Wat was just now.

I fetched a towel soaked in warm water from the bathroom before I made my way to the living room.

I snuggled beside Sarawat on the floor, not caring about crumpling the business suit I was wearing.

That was the last thing on my mind as I traced Sarawat's edged temple lightly.

You had lost some weight, didn't you?

I caressed Sarawat's cheeks tenderly, feeling the stickiness of dried tears against his bread cheeks and wiped his face gently.

I swept the bangs away from Sarawat's forehead, revealing his full visage.

God, I miss you so much, Wat.

Sarawat opened his eyes tiredly as I pulled back after kissing the scar near his eyebrow.

"Tine, I love you."

I cupped his cheeks and lifted his face until our eyes met. I could still see unshed tears glistening in those eyes and it broke me to witness how fragile my Wat was in those blood-shot red eyes.

At that very moment, what Fong told me in the restaurant earlier made perfect sense.

"Wat, I love you too."

"It doesn't matter, stay please."

I'm so sorry love.

I didn't know what made him beg this pettily. I've never seen him in such a vanquish state.

"I'll be still, Wat." I whispered softly into his ears.

Our lips met halfway, I could still taste the bitterness on his tongue. I wasn't even sure if that was because of the beer or because of the pain Sarawat had been bearing by himself for the past few weeks.