2gether AU: Stay, be Still

Chapter 21: Let's be Honest

Tine's POV

"Tine Teepakorn!"

I winced subconsciously as Fong berated at me, I was spacing out as Fong skimmed through my medical check-up report.

"Yes, Doctor Fong?" I put on my round eyes that I knew would calm him down almost instantly.

Talk about my chic charms.

He pinched the bridge of his nose frustratingly, and by that, I knew the figures weren't looking good.

I am starting to regret my decision for not allowing Wat to tag along.

Wat was sulking like a grumpy old cat when I left home this morning, insisting that I could handle the medical check-up routines by myself just fine.

I didn't want to impose on Wat, although I knew he would never think so.

"I told you to come for a check-up like, what? Two months ago?"

"I was busy."

"Busy my ass, you were merely creating your own problems."

Fong slammed the folder onto his table, I could feel the vibration in the tense air.

"So, I supposed it's not looking good?" I bit into my lower lip, bracing for whatever bad news that Fong was going to throw into my face.

"I don't think not looking good is the right term, read carefully."

Fong let out a lifeless sigh, he seemed worn out after a night shift.

"So, let's be honest, Fong, what are my chances?"

Those headaches.

"It depends, it's risky."

Those visions.

"I know, that's why Fong, let's be honest."

"And I've told you, it depends."

"Fong, what had I done wrong?"

At least, for now, I am feeling a little relieved for persisting in Sarawat to go to work as usual.

I wasn't the same person 30 seconds ago.

Also, at least, he was spared from this turbulence.

"Nothing, Tine. You had done nothing wrong."

Fong pulled me into his embrace, I thought I would weep, but I was unusually calm after reading that report.

I was numb, I didn't know what I was supposed to do, or where I was supposed to be at.

It felt like God had forsaken me, leaving me in exile, allowing me to die out by myself eventually.

"Tine, you need to tell Sarawat about this."

"I will, don't worry."

I might, don't bother.

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The clock is still ticking, people were still living their lives as nothing had happened.

Things remained in their inertia, while I, was left to deal with this storm all by myself.

I should probably start making a bucket list, 50 things to finish before I die.

I didn't know how to spell things out for Sarawat, I felt so powerless and helpless, by just thinking about my Wat.

Sarawat had always been my motivation to hang on and progress through the ups and downs, but not this time.

It felt like all my nightmares were coming true, and I have absolutely no idea how to calm this raging storm.

Sarawat's contact page displaying on my phone screen was still staring back at me, I've been here for the past half an hour, not knowing if I should call Sarawat.

I really needed someone to talk to, but I wasn't sure if Sarawat was the best person to talk to.

I didn't want to burden him, yet, I've promised him to let him know about the results from Fong when I left home this morning.

The push and pull from within were killing me slowly.

I should probably pack and leave now, maybe I could get to somewhere before Sarawat comes home.

"Tine!"

Oh f'ck, there goes my plan.

"In the kitchen!"

I looked up at the clock, realising that I'd been spacing out for the past few hours.

The cup of tea grew cold between my palms, pretty much like how my life is wilting seconds by seconds.

"You good? What did Fong say about your report?"

To tell or not to tell?

"Hey, you seem a bit pale, you sure it's all good?"

Sarawat had this annoying crease in between his brows, and it reminded me of the troubles I've caused him since we started dating in high school.

"Yeah, Fong said it was fatigue and burnouts. I'm just too tired." I lied smoothly.

"Really? I'll make dinner tonight then, meanwhile, you can take a nap, get some rest." Sarawat seemed a little relieved.

Was he expecting something?

"Don't worry, I've made us pad thai, it's in the pot already, I just have to reheat it."

I spent the entire afternoon cooking, reading, trying to make myself as occupied as possible so that my overthinking self would take a break.

I didn't need to go through another mental breakdown, at least I wasn't in any way prepared for another breakdown today.

"You should be resting, Tine, you're too tired." Sarawat raised his voice by a little, causing me to jump for a bit.

"I'm doing just fine. Anyway, what do you think of me taking a break from work temporarily?"

"Really? That would be nice. Tine, you had been working so much these few years without taking a break. You deserve a break, you need a break." Sarawat said sternly.

"I'll call in tomorrow and see what are the arrangements for that then."

"Really, just call Fong, Phuak or Ohm, it has been a long time since you guys met. Maybe, I'm just saying, you can drop by at Type's?

Although I pretty much know that he will be quite busy as well, it would be nice if you could meet him?

And Phukong, oh my God, I don't think he even remembers that he is actually a Guntithanon, not a Teepakorn."

Sarawat pouted at that thought.

The edge of my lips curled by a little, it has been a while since I last saw Sarawat being this carefree and talkative.

Maybe, it was a good decision.

"Ai my handsome prince, do you think we should talk over dinner?"

Sarawat's mouth gaped open and close like a fish out of water, he seemed a little embarrassed because he wouldn't even shut his mouth up for the past few minutes.

I've never seen him being so happy, except those times when he was writing his new songs.

"Sounds good, just wait here, I'll be back in 30 seconds."

That night, Sarawat pulled me into his embrace, putting me on his lap as he fed me mouthful by mouthful.

It was till then I realised how stressful it was for Sarawat to see me being unwell for the past few months, coupled with me shutting him out completely, they had definitely taken a toll on Sarawat's mind.

And I promised to myself that I would fight against the little accessory in me for myself, if not for Wat.

Because Sarawat and I, we both deserve all the good things in life.

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Do you know what's next? That's right, angst! 😖😖