No control

"Wine, alcohol"

Mary's POV

We grabbed our luggage and walked back to our chamber. We both tried to hide our laughs when we heard Kenna and Bash. I put down all my suitcases and started sorting clothes into the closet. Francis was busy with starting a fire, it wasn't cold but the vibe the fire gave was incredible.

"How are you doing? I mean it's been a while since I saw you, so?" Francis asked after a while. I turned to him, stopping to put my clothes in the closet.

"I'm doing..." I sighed and started putting my clothes in the closet again. "Fine." I finished. I could feel his eyes staring at me.

"Hm." He murmured, knowing that I wasn't okay at all.

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It is already evening and we all just finished eating. I don't want to go to bed, not because I'm not tired, but because Francis will be next to me. I don't know what it's going to be like.

"I'm kinda tired, I think I'm going to bed, I'll see you all tomorrow. Goodnight." I said, hoping that if I fall asleep early I won't need to see Francis. Everybody said goodnight and I walked upstairs and I laid in the bath drinking a glass of wine. I knew I shouldn't but I couldn't help myself. A glass became two, two became a bottle, and then everything went black. I was sinking in the bath. I couldn't breathe, couldn't move, couldn't scream.

Then someone grabbed me and pulled me out of the bath, while in the process the person stumbled over the bottle and I could hear the glass shatter. I couldn't open my eyes, I felt a towel wrapping around me and the person picked me up in bridal style. I felt so weak, it still felt like some kind of dream, like this wasn't real. Then I felt warm sheets, I was laying on my bed.

"Mary! Mary, god, wake up." A voice said, it was so familiar but I couldn't open my mouth to speak to Francis. The person was trying to wake me up. I started coughing, and my eyes sprung open. Francis was so glad that I was alright. He pulled me in a hug, the sheet fell from my chest, that's when I realised I was completely naked.

"Mary, are you alright?" Francis said, obviously still concerned. I couldn't think straight, the alcohol has more control over me than I have on myself.

"Yes. Ye-s." I said. He looked at me knowing that I was drunk. I wrapped the sheets tighter around me.

"Mary, you're drunk," He tried saying to me, I knew it was true but something in me didn't believe it, or didn't want to believe it.

"You need to rest, I'll get you some clothes, I'm going to clean up the bathroom and then go shower, in the meanwhile you can put some clothes on and you need to sleep." Francis spoke. He walked to the closet and got an oversized shirt, that was his, I guessed. He also got my underwear, he dropped the clothes on the corner of the bed.

"If there is anything, scream." He said and smiled at me, he walked to the bathroom. I slowly got up and walked to the clothes. Everything spun the moment I got up, but somehow I managed to get to the clothes, I put them on. I walked to the bed and laid down, when illness washed over me. I ran to the bathroom and emptied my stomach. Francis was taking his shirt off when I ran in. He came closer and looked at me. I liked the distance he was keeping. When I finished I was about to pass out. Quickly as he could he picked me up in bridal style and then carried me to the bed.

"I'll shower tomorrow, I will stay here till you fall asleep okay?" He asked me as he walked to the other side of the bed and got in.

"Francis? Do you care for me, more than friends?" I said, I couldn't control it, I was drunk. He turned his head to me and looked at me for a while, still processing the question in his head.

"Uhm, of course I care about you more than I do for friends, and I would love if Lis would be okay with this but-"

"- It's so complicated." I finished his sentence.

"No, that's not what I wanted to say," He swallowed and looked at the sheets. "What I did want to say is. She isn't okay with it and at her reaction I don't think she'll ever be." He finished his sentence. I was the one swallowing now, I know he is right but I didn't want him to be right. I looked at him and he looked at me, it wasn't awkward. Before I knew it I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

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The next morning I woke up with a very bad headache. I walked to the bathroom and I tried to find an aspirin in my makeup bag. When I found it I swallowed it with water and then walked back to bed.

"Goodmorning." I heard Francis say behind me, I turned around and saw him smiling at me. I tried to smile back.

"You should rest." He said.

"No, I don't, I will just jump in a cold shower and I'll be fine." I told him.

"Mary-"

"I'll be fine, truly. I should thank you, about saving me yesterday from drowning in a bath," I needed to laugh at my own stupidity. "And about being there for me." I finished, I was blushing lightly but I didn't fight it.

"Don't apologize, I'm glad I was there at time, I was wondering why you were taking so long, so I knocked on the door but you didn't answer and then I heard you coughing and I knew that something was wrong." He spoke lightly, smiling at me.

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CHapTEr 11! I will be more active now because my holidays just started. I'm planning on writing chapter 2 of unforgettable love today as well.(It's also a frary fanfic, READ IT.) Comment, I read those:)

-B