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by wavybvby

by wavybvby

i rammed the gear shift of my car into park and ran for the emergency doors of the hospital. i squinted from the change of daylight to fluorescent hospital lights. "brayden marshall, where is he?" i asked the nurse at the desk. "sorry, can you repeat that hun?" she asked. "i'm looking for brayden marshall" i told her. "relationship to patient?" she asked. "he's my brother" i told her. "your name?" she asked "allie marshall" i said.

"he's on floor 9, trauma unit. they'll have more information for you up there" she said, smiling warmly at me. "thank you" i told her, bee lining for the elevators. i hit the 9 button, the door couldn't open fast enough. "i'm coming bray" i mumbled to no one. not like he could hear me. the door dinged, signalling i'd reached the ninth floor.

i went straight to the nurses station to figure out what was going on with my brother. "can i help you?" she asked. "i was told a brayden marshall was on this floor. he's my brother. is he okay? what happened to him?" i started frantically questioning the nurse. "take a breath sweetie" she instructed me. "your brother is in surgery right now. go have a seat in the waiting room and the attending doctor will be out shortly. he'll have more information for you" she told me. "thank you" i sighed, going to wait. i just wanted to know what happened to him, and if he was going to be okay. surgery didn't sound good.

every second ticked by painfully slow. gus was blowing up my phone. he was the last person i wanted to talk to. if he killed my brother i could never forgive him, wether or not brayden had done any wrong to me. this was almost unforgivable. a black eye or a busted lip i would have let slide, but surgery? no.

gus
allie
call me
please
let me just talk to you
don't do this to me
al
i love you
i didn't want to hurt you
sometimes i just get a little out of control
he'll make it
you can hate me but please just talk to me
i just wanted to protect you
my girl
come back to me
i'll be here

gus | missed call (9)

if brayden died right now i would lose both of them. if he pulled through, i'd have to pick between them. they'd both wronged me but they'd also both been there for me. i loved them, not in the same way but they both held an important place in my heart.

i was pissed at gus right now. extremely pissed. deep down inside of course i still loved him, but this was his fault and he fucked up. this would not be easily forgiven. "miss marshall?" a doctor asked, approaching me in the waiting room. "yeah that's me" i said. "brayden is still in surgery. he's suffered multple fractures in his hands and face, as well as 2 broken ribs. the broken rib punctured and collapsed his lung. he has a severe full thickness simple laceration to the posterior region. lots of bruising and minor wounds. he's lost a lot of blood, he is in and out of stability but we're doing all we can. when we have an update we will share it with you as soon as we can" he told me. the medical terms went in one ear and out the other, but it was obvious it wasn't good. he wasn't doing good.

"can you tell him i'm here, and that i love him?" i asked, holding back tears. "we will let him know if we are able too ma'am" he said. that also didn't sound promising. he didn't seem very sure he'd make it off the table.

gus
allie
babes
please
i'm sorry
please talk to me
are you okay?
i'm a fuck up
i know
i'm sorry
i ruin everything good that comes into my life
i love you
allie please
you're all i have right now

allie
you might have killed him.

i wasn't taking any of gus' bullshit right now. he can't change what happened. "do they know who did this?" i asked the doctor before he reached the door. "from what i have heard there is no suspect and no evidence" he told me. i nodded to myself. did i want gus to go down for this? maybe something could make the two of them get along.

an hour passed.

and another hour.

and another.

no updates from anyone, just sympathetic smiles. every second killed a little more of my hope. "i'm here brayden. please make it through this. i know you can. i love you and i'm sorry. how did i let this happen. we're family" i whispered to myself.

gus
no
no
allie
he's going to make it
i'll fix this
i'll fix it
we'll be okay
i'll make something work with brayden
i can't lose you
or him
he was my friend too
this isn't happening
he'll be okay
right?

allie
no updates

i gave gus a vague update. maybe he would shut up. i decided to worry about gus later. all that mattered right now was my brother being okay.

it was rolling into the night now. i curled up in the uncomfortable waiting room chair, forcing myself to stay awake incase the doctor came back out. i was so overwhelmed with emotion right now i couldn't even show any. i wanted to cry, i wanted to scream, i wanted to be angry, i wanted to panic but i couldn't do any of it. i was frozen. this was a nightmare.

the door creaked open, brining me sharply back to attention. "miss marshall" the doctor from earlier said. "is he okay?" i asked desperately. "we have some updates for you" he told me.