The Trouble With The Truth

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   "Care about what?" I yell back. "And you better not say me Emily...." I pause, waiting for her to finish her sentence.
   "You" she yells. I throw my hands up in the air and walk into the kitchen. Emily follows.
   "Do you want me?" I ask turning around.
   "well, I mean-" she replies
I hold my hand up,
   "Ok me rephrase that. Do you want to be with me?"
  She stays silent.
   " take me on a date. A real date" I say plainly.
   "It's not that simple! I can't right now"
   "Ok, so when can you?"
   "I don't know"
   "Ok, so you don't want me to be with you. You don't want me to be with Alex. How much more do I have to go through before you're happy Emily!"
   "You either want to be with me or you don't. It's simple"
   "I don't appreciate you taking to me like this." She glares. "Don't date Alex Blake."
   "You can't tell me what to do. You don't get to fuck me and then fuck with my head like this." I yell. "Out" and I point to the door.
   "This isn't over. It's unprofessional for the two of you to be involved"
   "You're right, so it's a good thing we aren't fucking on your desk at work"
She stops and spins around. "Did you sleep with her" her eyes glaring into my soul.
   " that isn't ANY of your business. This isn't professional Agent."
She scoffs and walks out the door slamming it behind her. My hands are shaking from whatever just happened. I walk to the couch and pull a blanket around me. I hear yet another knock on the door.
   "I am going to kill someone" I angrily walk towards the door.
   "What?" I say swinging it open.
There stands Alex.
   "Oh god, I'm sorry I thought you were-"
   "Don't apologize. I know who you thought I was"
   "Please come in"
   "I saw her come storming in on my way out so I waited a bit and then when she came storming out I wanted to check on you."
My eyes are glossy as I struggle to find the words.
   "I can go. I won't be offended" she says gently.
   "Actually would you mind staying a minute?"
She nods and we sit on the couch.
   "She loves fucking with my head and now she knows we went out on a date and is going to make work hell, and she'll probably tell Staruss"
   "Hey, hey. It's ok. Let her tell Staruss. We aren't doing anything wrong. If 'us' is something you may want to try, we can and it's not gonna matter what Emily or Staruss or anyone else thinks."
Her voice is so gentle and reassuring.
   "ok" I whisper. Her hand cups the side of my face. "Is there anything else I can do?"
I shake my head and let out a sigh.
   "Here lie down" she pulls a pillow in her lap and pats it. I lay my head down in her lap and I close my eyes. Her hands brush through  my hair and I feel so safe. When I'm with her I completely forget about the outside world. Before I know it I'm drifting off to sleep.

Next morning:
I wake, curled up next to Alex. I smile at her sleeping peacefully.

   "hey," I shake her lightly. Her eyes flutter open. "hey don't you have an appointment?"

   "shoot, I do. Give me one moment" she stands up and walks dow the hall to make a phone call. I go to the kitchen and start a pot of coffee. As I move about the kitchen Alex walks up behind me and places her hand on my back. I jump a bit

   "sorry I didn't mean to startle you" she smiles "I rescheduled my appointment m"

   "oh I'm sorry"

   "don't be sorry, I would much rather be here anyways."

   "coffee?" I hold up a cup.

   "yes please"

I hand her a cup and we sit and talk for almost an hour.

   "I'm so sorry, but I need to take a shower, I feel disgusting" I laugh

   "well you don't look disgusting but I can get going"

   "I can be quick...I guess I'm just not quite ready for you to leave"

   "I'm not either" she smirks "I'll wait for you"

I walk back into the shower and turn the water on. I strip out of my clothes and climb in. I wash my hair and body and right as I'm about to get out I realize I don't have a towel.

   "ALEX" I call out! She comes running down the hall.

   "is everything ok?" I hear her call from outside the door.

   "can you please bring me a towel, in the linen closest right outside"

She opens the door and hands me the towel but I drop it.

   "shit" I whisper

   "here I've got it" she opens the door and hands me the towel. Her eyes rake my body.

    "uh-um" she starts to breath heavy and I smirk a bit. I lightly wrap the towel around my body and I walk right past her. She follows me down the hall and I right as I enter my room I close the door. I don't lock it but Alex remains on the other side of the door.

   "Y/n...please don't do this to me" she begs.

   "no one's  stopping you" I call out and she opens the door. I stand there wearing noting but a towel.

   "oh my god" she mumbles "if I didn't know any better I'd say you were trying to seduce me" she smirks.

   "what do you think Dr.?" I tease as she walks up to me.

   "I think you can ditch the towel"

She takes my hands away from where I was holding it and the towel falls to the ground...

Following Monday at the BAU: (Emily's POV)

I may very well vomit. Y/n and Blake come walking into the office giggling. I take a deep breath as I stand up and walk outside of my office.

   "agent Y/L/N? May I see you for a moment"

We make eye contact and she starts walking towards me as I retreat into my office.

  "yes?" she asks

   "close the door please and have a seat"

   "is everything ok?"

   "No...." I pause as I can feel the pit in my stomach making its way up my throat.

  "Emily?" she looks at me concerned. I try to speak but nothing comes out. Y/n sighs.

   "Emily either you have something to say or you don't. Obviously you don't." she stands and walks out of my office. It's almost like I'm paralyzed. After thirty minutes of me just sitting there at my desk. I grab my things and walk out. I walk right past everyone and on to the elevators.

Y/n's POV:

   "is everything ok?" Morgan asks when I return to my desk.

   "I have no idea" I say plainly. He sits back in his chair and then leans over closer to me and whispers,

   "are you and Alex...you know?"

   "no. we went out, but we both decided on Saturday we would be better off as friends."

After the whole towel incident it became clear to both of us that my heart simply wasn't with Alex. I couldn't do that to her and she understood. I felt bad but she was sweet about it.

   "Well I think someone better tell ms. thang about that because she is about to lose her mind"

    "what are you talking about?"

  "it's no secret babygirl can't keep her mouth shut to save her life and apparently Emily came into work a mess Saturday morning. And it was about the two of you."

I  look over at Alex and back to Morgan.

   "I think you should probably go" he looks at me and I know he's right. I grab my coat and start out after Emily. By the time I get to the parking lot, her car is gone. It's pouring rain outside so I ru to my car and decide to go to her apartment. But when I arrive she isn't there. Finally, I head back home to try and collect myself. The weather outside is an accurate representation of what I feel like on the inside. I sit on my couch contemplating what I should do. It's approach six o'clock when I hear a knock at my door. I open it to find Emily, dripping wet from the rain outside.

  With glossy eyes, she whispers just loud enough for me to hear,

   "I do have something to say..."