The Trouble With The Truth

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Emily's POV:

Two weeks ago I had noticed a lump in my left breast. It was small and I really didn't think anything of it. But tonight as I was changing, I noticed it had gotten bigger.

   "Fuck" I muttered to myself.

This is the last fucking thing we need right now. I didn't know quite what to think, but then the possibility of what this could mean set in.

What if it's bad? Like bad bad? What if I have to get it removed? What ifs raced through my mind as tears pooled in my eyes.

   "Em?" Y/n knocked.

Her voice is what did me in. I know Im probably getting ahead of myself but hearing Y/n's voice, I realized that this was going to hurt her too.

   "Uh-just a minute"

   "Are you ok?"

   "Yep" I lied, knowing damn well she could tell when I was lying.

   "Emily"

There it was. She knew. I just needed a minute to collect my thoughts. I needed to be composed, not only for my sake, but hers as well.

I opened the door and she was sitting on the edge of the bed.

   "What's going on?" She asked, worry written all over her face.

   "Let's sit down" I whispered.

   "Emily, you're scaring me..."

   "Two weeks ago, I found a lump in my left breast. Tonight I noticed it has gotten a little bigger. So I'm going to need to go get it checked out." I tried to sound as calm as possible.

Her eyes were wide and filled to the brim with tears.

   "Nothing is wrong yet so let's just take it one day at a time" i choked out.

   "Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

   "I didn't think there was anything to tell" I said plainly.

   "We're going in tomorrow. Understand?" She said sternly.

   "Yes. Would you come with?"

   "That's not even a question. Of course."

   "I'm sorry" I muttered as a few tears fell down my cheeks.

   "Don't you dare apologize. Emily, we'll get through this, whatever the outcome. Ok? I'm strong enough for the both of us so don't you worry about that."

She pulled me into a kiss and her arms squeezed me tightly.

Following day at the doctors office:

   "I definitely think you made the right decision coming in. We'll expedite the biopsy and we should know by tomorrow morning whether or not it's anything of concern." The Dr. said.

Y/n squeezed my hand, reminding me she was there.

   "I'm not going to lie, I am slightly worried about the fact that you've noticed growth, but I don't want us to jump to any conclusions until we know for sure."

   "Thank you, we appreciate it" Y/n shook the doctor's hand as I tried to let it all sink in.

The car ride home was a blur as my mind tried to process everything.

   "Emily?" Y/n asked. "Talk to me"

I stared out the window and suddenly I started to ball. Y/n pulled over and took me in her arms.

   "Honey" she whispered and I could hear the shakiness in her voice.

   "I'm scared" I cried.

   "I know, I know. We are going to get through this. Whatever it is, we will get through it together."

I don't know what to do with myself. This all seems like a terrible nightmare.

   "Emily Prentiss, I love you more than life itself. And I made a vow to you. In sickness and in health. It's you and I no matter what. You will never be alone. I know I'm not meant to live this life without you so I'm not worried. Ok?"

God I love this woman. I hated that we were going through this.

   "I love you" i sniffled and kissed her. "Let's go see our baby" i forced a smile.

The evening was spent playing with Lauren and baking cookies. And for a while I forgot about the news I was waiting on.

Y/n's POV:

I was terrified. But Emily didn't need to know that and I wasn't about to let on how scared I truly was.

My wife may or may not have a tumor. A tumor. I could throw up just thinking about it. I watched her play with Lauren and I was ready to burst into tears. She can't be sick. She just can't.

Though I tried to make the day as distracting as possible, I knew we both were thinking about the results.

   "Mama" Lauren kept saying. She didn't know many words but she was starting to learn. Most of the time it was gibberish but every now and then she would say something that actually sounded like a word.

   "I wish I knew what was going on in that little head of yours" Emily chuckled and kissed Lauren on the forehead.

The evening was as distracting as either of us could make it but it was time for Lauren to go to bed and that's when Emily started to struggle.

   "I don't want to leave her" she looked at me with glossy eyes as she looked at her sitting with her favorite stuffed animal.

   "You're not" I smiled and kissed her. "We're just going to bed Em"

   "I know, it's just... it's just hard"

   "I know" I brushed some hair behind her ear. "I think we all need to get some rest"

We crawled into bed and I swear we were both trying to absorb one another. We simply couldn't get close enough.

But, we had both had an emotionally taxing day so falling asleep was quite easy.

But around seven a.m. I looked over and Emily wasn't in bed. I put on my robe and went to the kitchen where she sat drinking a cup of coffee.

   "What are you doing up?" I asked.

   "Couldn't sleep. Besides the lab results could be in as early as eight"

I kissed her and went to pour myself a cup of coffee.

   "I need to know. It's excruciating." Emily sighed.

Tell me about it. Is what I wanted to say. I felt like I hadn't been able to breathe since she told me so I was definitely anxious to get the results.

Lauren began to stir and Emily went and got her.
We made breakfast and listened to some music until around 8:10 when Emily's phone rang.

I stopped the music and Emily picked up, putting the phone on speaker.

   "Hello, I'm looking for an Emily Prentiss?" a young voice came through the phone.

   "This is she" Emily's voice shook so I took her hand in mine.

   "Good morning, I'm calling from doctor Fletchers office. You had a lab done yesterday is that correct?"

   "Yes"

   "I'm calling to inform you that the test results are in...."

Sorry it's so short! I'll make up for it I promise!