What Could Have Been

Love

I lay out the black cocktail dress with the black handbag, white high heels and the pearls out. I'm shocked that I'm going on a date with this man, it's been so long since I had any male interest. I went to
the shower and rinsed off, now it's time to do my makeup. I'm going for something so soft glam because I don't want to do too much you know? As I'm applying my makeup when I get a text from him saying
"You are the moon in the stars" with a heart emoji
"You are the stars in the moon" I replied with a wink.
I don't know what I meant by that but honestly I thought it was cute. He replied with a smiley face. Oh this man has me crazy for him. Let me stop, I can't keep falling for someone who I don't know would stay in my life.
I put on my clothes and I pinned my hair up, this is the first time in a long time that I feel confident. I look good, my body looks nice and I'm just so gorgeous at this moment. I walk downstairs and I noticed that my mother wasn't home so I turned off all the lights and walked out and started to walk to the block where he gave me a ride before. I stopped walking and put on this rose strawberry perfume, it smells delicious. I keep walking and I see his car just waiting for me. The butterflies are kicking in. I'm hesitating going over to the car because I don't want to look to cheap right? I don't want him to think I'm poor when I am. I walked over to the car and got in.
When I seen his face, I just had to hold my breathe, he looks so handsome and so daring. I'm obsessed.
"Hey Gorgeous" he says
"Heyy " I said shyly
"Today we're going to a nice dinner and we're going to take a long beautiful walk downtown"
"I think that sounds pretty nice" I say with a smile
He couldn't stop looking at me, his eyes was looking up and down my body and I seen him bite his lip.
Fuck he's really into me like that huh? As he's driving, he put out his hand out for me to hold and I'm thinking to myself hold his hand but I just can't seem to do it
"Nervous huh?"
"A little bit" I say laughing
"Hold my hand" says him with a smile
He interlocks his hand in mine and I can tell you that he makes me feel sane, very sane. He's someone that I need in my lonely life.
He put on some tunes and it was Billie Eilish wow I didn't know he listened to her, it's the song named bury a friend and that's one of my favorite songs from her.
"Say it, spit it out, what is it exactly?
You're payin'?
Is the amount cleanin' you out
Am I satisfactory?" He says singing. His singing voice is so beautiful.
"Today, I'm thinkin' about
The things that are deadly
The way I'm drinkin' you down
Like I wanna drown, like I wanna end me" i replied singing and he laughs
"You're amazing"
"I know I am" says me with a smile.
This is unreal.