"Can we talk?"
I asked Erich on the phone. Pumayag din naman siya.
Kung tutuusin alam niyang may girlfriend si Jagger ng mga panahong iyon pero... hindi man lang siya nabahala.
I got her number from the clinic where she works.
Kaya lang, hindi rin ako mapalagay. What if naka-survive si Ate Monica noon at... siya na ang taong nasa harapan ko ngayon?
Narito kami ngayon sa isang hindi kilalang cafe upang makapag-usap.
She has a scar on her hand.
Her aura looks stunning. Ang ganda. Bigla tuloy bumaba confidence ko.
I can smell her perfume. We really do have the same taste.
Kahit sa lalaki.
I mentally laughed.
She's wearing a dress... Probably Jagger bought this, huh?
Ganitong dress din ang kanyang binibili sa 'kin.
"So, what are we gonna talk about?" matapang na tanong niya.
I cleared my throat. Ngayon ko lang na-realize na ang tapang ko para kausapin ang babaeng 'to!
At ang tapang din niya para umakto ng ganito.
"Where did you get those scars?" I asked, pointing the scar on her hand.
She scoffed. "Aren't you going to ask about Jagger?" she tapped her fingers on the table.
I crossed my arms. "I'm not interested on my ex's lovelife," natatawang tugon ko.
Her lips parted a bit. "Ah." She awkwardly laughed.
I mentally cursed. I shouldn't just invited her here!
She looked at her hand. "I got these.. because I got burnt," walang pakialam na sagot n'ya.
I heaved a sigh.
"Sa hospital ba?"
Natigilan siya.
My eyes widened.
"So you got that from the fire at the hospital!" I pointed her.
She looked at me in confusion. "How did you know?"
I looked away. "My sister... was there too.."
She chuckled. "Calamba Hospital? Terrorist attack? He escaped from prison? Ganun din ba nangyari sa kapatid mo?"
I slowly nodded.
"So you called me here... 'cause you assume that I'm your sister, right?" She sighed.
"I thought you're going to slap me... or cursed at me." I glanced at her. "But you're just here to ask those things?"
"I-I was j-just..." I can't answer her.
Maybe I missed my sister so damn much that I even thought that she's my sister.
"B-Baka k-kasi n-naka-survive p-pala siya... tapos..." My heart ached.
"Tapos ako pala 'yon?" She tsked. "I'm not your sister, Erica," she stated. "Tatlo kaming pasyente noon ang naligtas nila. There were two boys and me. Wala ng iba," she added.
"Besides, kung ako nga siya, matatanggap mo ba?" aniya.
My forehead creased. "Huh?" taka kong tanong sa kanya.
She shrugged her shoulders. "You know... Jagger... and I..." maingat niyang pahayag.
I blinked. She's right.
Matatanggap ko kaya kung ganitong sitwasyon, pero kapatid ko pala siya? Ang hirap no'n.
Mas mahirap at masakit kung kadugo mo mismo ang dahilan ng pagtataksil sa 'yo ng mahal mo.
I heard her sniffed. "Hindi ka ba talaga magagalit? Walang sampalan na mangyayari?" She tsked. "Naka-prepare pa naman ako kung sakali." She smiled.
I bit the insides of my cheeks.
May karapatan akong maglit, oo. Pero hindi ko alam... bakit parang wala na akong maramdaman ngayon?
I'm not fond of violence. Mas gusto ko pa kung pag-uusapan ang problema.
My lips formed a curve. "Take care of him, hmm?" I stated gently. "Mahilig siya sa tortang talong kapag breakfast... he doesn't like sweets-" She halted me.
She snapped her fingers. "I don't need those," she said firmly.
"Jagger was just doing this for his mother... you know... Tita Thalia," she uttered.
"He totally don't like me." She tilted her head.
I was taken aback.
"A-Ano?" naguguluhan kong tanong.
Huminga muna siya nang malalim bago muling nagsalita.
"Tita Thalia is sick. She wished that..." Tinignan niya ako sa mata. "Jagger should be with me," she said slowly. "
What the heck? He's doing this for his mother? Ganoon na ba talaga kalala ang kanyang sitwasyon? Na pati ang aming relasyon ay kailangan madamay?
Hindi ba sapat ang pagmamahalan namin ni Jagger at iniwan niya talaga ako para kay Tita Thalia?
He cared for his mother... pero 'di ko alam na aabot pa sa sitwasyon na ganito.
"I'm sorry... Erica..."
Selfish ba kung selfish pero... hindi niya ako pinaglaban... hindi niya kami pinaglaban.
I tried to fit on his shoes.
What if I were in the same situation as his? My mother will told me her wish, to be with another guy who I didn't love at all.
My heart ached.
I can't do that. I will fought for us if I were in his situation.
Tita Thalia... just why?
Tears escaped from my eyes.
"What about you? Do you have feelings for him?" I bitterly asked.
She didn't respond. I faked a laugh.
Wala na akong narinig mula kay Erich dahil umalis na ako kaagad.
Bastos na kung bastos pero hindi ko na kaya.
I tried si hard to understand Jagger's situation. I bitterly smiled. He love his mother so much.
I sighed as I went home.
Hindi ako lumabas ng kwarto.
Naiisip ko minsan kung naaalala rin ba ako ni Jagger? Nami-miss din ba niya ako?
Wala man lang kaming maayos na pag-uusap.
I want to visit his mother, but I'm scarred and in pain.
I don't have the courage to visit her.
I'm so tired.
My parents tried their best to comfort me. Albeit, I'm single yet I have the best parents and friend of mine.
Hanggang dito na lang talaga.
Nalunod man ako sa sakit, pangako ko sa sarili ko na aahon akong muli.
10/25/21
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He Got Deja Vu
Romance"We did that too..." -She, the bitter one. Billions of people, but I chose him. But seems the world is too unfair and against me. Because I gave him too much of myself, but he just betrayed me. It took one text message to destroy my sanity. See...
