Marami na ang nawala sa 'kin.
Happiness, confident, and myself.
I felt lost and empty.
And of course, the news spread like a wildfire. Even my parents were shocked about the truth.
Muntik na silang sumugod kila Jagger at magwala. They trusted him. They treated him well but he just treated me like this.
The situation wasn't easy.
The people around me always ask questions regarding about what how did it happened.
They would always say 'you two were so in love' or some would say 'akala ko hanggang simbahan na ang love story niyo'.
Akala ko rin, eh.
It's been months but he never communicated with me again.
He never apologized... or explained.
Myself drowned on his love and all the butterfly feels.
But now, the love and the butterflies he had given me turned into dust.
Masakit pa rin pero wala na akong maramdaman. Pero inisip ko na lang na at least I learned how to love. For once in my life... I gave and received love... kaya lang sa maling tao.
Ever since we broke up, the rain wouldn't stop on falling from the sky. Para rin siyang nakikisama sa 'kin.
I never dreamed of this. All I want is to be happy.
I sighed. It was already 2 a.m. The sound of rain is now my favorite.
I snapped my finger. "Ah, right..." I went to my desk and opened my journal.
It's been a month since I started to write things that happened in my day. Also, some of my thoughts... I wrote them down to lessen the heavy weight inside my heart.
Writing also makes me feel less alone.
I haven't told anyone about this... but I'm planning to write a story.
I want to write a story about love... About a two person who didn't end together.
I've decided to wander around the country until the pain is gone. Gusto ko munang unahin ang sarili ko ngayon. Ilang araw na rin akong hindi mapakali sa desisyon na ito.
I want find myself again. I want to love myself again. And I wanted to bring back the old Erica.
"Omg, sis!" hindi makapaniwalang komento ni Brina. Sa kanya ko ito unang sinabi upang makahingi ng opinyon.
"Wala namang masama sa desisyon na 'yan! Teka, alam na ba nila Tita?" Dumating na ang order naming frappe kaya napatigil siya saglit sa pagsasalita.
She sipped in ger drinks first. "This time, choose yourself, Erica." Brina smiled and put back the frappe on the table.
My lips formed a smile too. It was a genuine smile.
"Choosing yourself is self care. Atsaka, alam ko namang maiintindihan ka nila Tita at Tito kaya don't worry. Tell them what you wanted to do," she said, smiling.
"You struggled a lot. You deserved a break and moment for yourself. Feel free to travel the world, Erica... If it means to rediscover your own happiness and self." She gave once again a assuring smile.
I pressed my lips into a thin line. Heck, this girl is such a blessing!
Magkaharap kaming dalawa at hindi ko na napigilan amg sarili at napatayo para pumunta sa tabi niya at yakapin siya.
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He Got Deja Vu
Romance"We did that too..." -She, the bitter one. Billions of people, but I chose him. But seems the world is too unfair and against me. Because I gave him too much of myself, but he just betrayed me. It took one text message to destroy my sanity. See...
