Random, Works.

37: More Than A Hundred Miles

With my entire mind, body, and soul
I miss you.
You're not even too far away - what's a couple hours on the highway to separate us?
It's not that I wouldn't hop on the next train up North just to see you,
hold you,
love you.

But, it's much more complicated than that I guess.
You would never expect me to be there, and you would never expect for these feelings to reside right here in my heart either.
And so tell me how I can ever face you like that, turning up out of the blue with nothing but my soul in my hands; waiting for the greatest love to handle it with tender love and care.

It's next to impossible to ever imagine a scenario where you would openly say:
"yes."
Then I could jump into your arms and that would be the beginning of a lifetime together.
Even if it's all I could ever want,
it's something I will never have.

What a crime! To be robbed of a lifetime filled with your magnificent grace.
One could only dream.

Maybe in another universe there's a you and there's a me.
In this world I'm able to sit on that 5 hour ride and I make it to you, bare my soul, and get the girl in the end.
I know that if I ever had you, I would never let you go.
Not in a million years.

But in reality, it's just not plausible.
It could never happen.
There's just too many miles between us,
Too many unspoken words and feelings that still thrive and grow each day we're apart.
And I'm sorry, but,
I'm too much of a coward to ever really be what you realistically want.

So I'll sit here and dream.
Fantasize about our alternate universe containing me and you,
Together.
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Song: Girl Crush (Little Big Town)
A//N: I know I've used the version of Harry singing this before I believe. BUT, I couldn't stop singing it in my head and it inspired me to write for the first time in a while so yah.... It's an epic song, hope you can forgive the repetition (lol).