Random, Works.

27: Maybe I Miss You (l.s.)

I've been meaning to call you back - 

I even got your 3 messages, although I couldn't bring myself to listen to them.

My phone always felt way too heavy in my hand.

I sat and stared at the small screen for long periods of time.

How long has it been now?

 About 2 years maybe?

God, it feels like forever since I last heard your beautiful raspy voice in my ear.

I also loved your thick accent, it was unique and always brought a smile to my face whenever you pronounced words funny.

I remember you once said you loved my accent to, which made me smile.

We spent so much time together, fell in love with one another, discovered the world as just a  pair of young kids who didn't know any better.

Naive, stupid, reckless, spontaneous, passionate - 

I could go on and on.

Obviously, I tried to force myself to forget about you. It quickly became apparent to me that it would take a lot of time and effort though.

There was also that first time - after you - where I had tried to get lost in someone else because I thought that I could be momentarily distracted.

Guess what? I was unsuccessful, and I couldn't stop thinking about you during that whole dreadful experience.

They didn't appreciate it. 

I apologized though, you know, because I'm such a gentleman like that.

What's it going to take for me to hear from you again?

I had only ignored you because I was still hurt; you should have understood that I needed some time to sort my head out. 

Please, I thought it was going to be easier. Although, it's you we're talking about here, and nothing is ever simple when you're involved.

I almost forgot to mention that I saw your friend the other day, and we chatted for a bit. 

You know the blonde one with that irritating laugh? I guess they weren't really a friend, you'd always complain about him. 

Anyways,

I asked about you, just wanting to check-in and see what you've been up to. Not that I could escape you, the news held all the information I needed to know.

But, I had to hear it from someone who really knew you.

I heard you're doing just fine.

That initiated the uncomfortable pang in my chest again.

Only because I'm still struggling to live in this world without you by my side 24/7.

Shit, I still think of you all the time like some loser.

How could I ever get over my first love? 

My first everything?

My fucking world.

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Song: From The Dining Table (Harry Styles)

A//N: FUN FACT!!!! The inspiration for this is not only from the song but a certain SHIP that involves two of my most favourite people in the entire world. 

Is it obvious? Probably.

If you have any guesses comment them below!! I'd love to hear from all of you, hope you're staying safe and healthy in quarantine! 

All the love, x.

HAHAHAHA SEE WHAT I DID THERE??? I'm so clever HA. It's a Harry reference if you're stuck, most people better understand it though, it's pretty simple (lol). 

"tReAt PeOpLe WiTh KiNdNeSs,"

seriously though.

; )