I needed you then and I may actually need you now,
but,
It's all so complicated compared to the previous time. I can't seem to connect with you or anything in general anymore.
Sometimes, I sit and I think to myself that it all would've been easier if I hadn't been such a bitch that day. Then, you'd still be here with me, and I could smile and laugh like nothing was wrong.
But it gets harder as the days grow colder; the sun won't come out to play and the flowers won't beautifully bloom.
The need for the ache in my chest to stop grows slowly again, yet, I can't seem to experience it as much as that first time I was left feeling like this.
The grudges that I hold against myself appear from the unknown as per usual, and I can't get them to go away. They loom over me like this great wall that casts a simple powerful shadow on a sidewalk.
If that makes any sense at all,
but you wouldn't care, and I know that it doesn't.
Everything seems to be ripping at the seams, and my loneliness is creeping in once again.
Maybe this time I can't be saved because you couldn't care less what happens to me.
It's not like it used to be.
It isn't yesterday.
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Song: Yesterday - cover by Billie Eilish (The Beatles)
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