Carl & I

Chapter Six Confused

I hear a pounding on my door and it startles me a little. I slowly rise to my feet and make my way towards the door. I'm in too much pain to check through the peephole so i violently pull the door open. Standing in front of me is Carl.

"Y/n. I am sorry. I did not have sex with Enid while we were together. It was the first night I was here, I just wanted it and I'm so stupid for not telling you. I'm sorry. I love you." tears raced down his face and he tried desperately to hold them back.

"No Carl, come back another time. I'm not ready to talk to you."

His head fell and he turned to walk off of my front porch. My heart ached for him, and before I knew what I was saying I had yelled for him to come back. "Carl, come back. Come in."

His head whipped around and he ran to me, he wrapped his arms around me and held my head on his chest. After a few moments I walked into my house, Carl following behind. I sat down on my couch and he sat beside me.

"Y/n, I am so sorry. I never thought Enid was attractive. I've just never had sex and she came onto me. I didn't know what to do. I wanted it, but I want you more than anything." Carl weeped as he bowled his head so I couldn't see him crying.

"I, I love you too Carl and I always will." I placed my hands firmly on his shoulders and he looked up into my eyes. He kissed me deeply and laid me on my back. He slid on top of me and continued to kiss me.

He began to grind on me, and I knew what it would lead to. Im not ready for this yet. I can't do this, I'm not ready.

"No. Not now Carl." I muttered as he continued to kiss me. "But." I cut him off. "No Carl. Not today. I'm not ready and I need you to prove to me that you really do love me." I kissed him once again and he placed his head on my chest.

"I will prove that I love you. Whatever it takes." he wrapped his arms around my back and squeezed me tightly as I ran my fingers through his hair. "I love you." he whispered into my chest. "I love you too Carl."