Carl & I

Chapter Eight Mom

I placed my hands across my lap after I straightened my skirt. I glanced at each person sitting at the table. I figured since I was having dinner with Carl's "family" that I should have appropriate manners and attire.

Carl sat next to me and across from me sat Rick. To Rick's left, Judith squirmed in her seat. I assume she was moody as she pouted when I said hello to her. She normally doesn't do that. Right of Rick was Michonne, Eugene, Glenn, and Maggie. On the other side of me was Abraham, Rosita, Daryl, and Carol.

I waited for everyone to be served before I began to eat. It was good don't get me wrong, but I've never had anything as good as my mothers cooking since before the apocalypse.

After we had eaten our dinner Carl took my upstairs to his bedroom. We wouldn't be doing anything sexual today because I was on my period.

He threw himself onto his bed and patted on the open area beside him. I slowly moved towards him and sat down. He looked at me for a long time, grabbed both sides of my face and pulled me in for a kiss.

I smiled as he kissed me which made him giggle. "I love you." He managed murmur through his constant kissing. I pulled back to catch my breath "Why?" his smile turned into a face of confusion. "Why do you love me? I'm nothing to love. I'm just a girl that isn't perfect at all." he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms. His fingers slowly moved through my hair and down my back. I used to love when my mother did that.

"Y/n, I love you because you are you. The first day we met, my heart skipped so many beats. Each time I see you, I light up. I dream about you. When you touch me, it makes me forget that our world has gone to shit. Everything I've gone through, I thought it would never get better, but it did. It got a lot better. You are so beautiful." he whispered to me as I laid my head on his chest.

What he described is my love for him. I do love him. I mean I'm pretty sure I do, I've never loved anyone or been loved before, other than by my parents. I miss them. I began to cry.

"What's wrong?" Carl asked. "I haven't been loved since before this world took a turn. My parents were the last people that showed me love." I managed to get out while choking on tears. "I guess I'm just not used to meaning something to people."

He pulled me in closer and kissed my forehead. It sent a warm feeling through my body and I stopped crying. "Carl, can I ask you something?" my heart ached as I spoke. "Yeah." he said in a deep, sleepy voice. It was hot. "You don't have to answer this, but what happened to your mother. Judging on Judith's age, she must've been around during all of this." as soon as I spoke, I regretted it.

"My mom.. okay. Well my dad is a police officer. He was shot and went into a coma. His bestfriend Shane Walsh, relayed the news to my mother and I. The day everything happened, Shane told my mother and I that my dad was dead. He thought he was until he came back. My mom found out she was pregnant on Maggie's farm. She doesn't know I know this and neither does my dad, but Judith may not even be my dads child. It's more likely that it's Shane's. My mom went into labor went walkers entered the area at the prison we were staying. Maggie, my mom, and I hid in the boiler room where she started giving birth. Something was wrong and Maggie couldn't let the baby be pushed out. We didn't have any other choice. Maggie cut her open and got Judith out. She passed out from pain, and I shot her in the head so she wouldn't turn when she died from blood loss." I could see the tears forming in his eyes.

I grabbed him and pressed his face into my chest. I ran my fingers through his hair and kissed his head a few times. "I'm so sorry Carl, I didn't know. That's horrible." He looked up at me "It's okay." he said.

"Can I ask you something now?" he rose his head from my chest. "Sure."

"What happened to your parents?" he looked me deep in the eyes. "I mean you don't have to answer."

"No it's fine, I asked you." I winced as I remembered the pain I endured after losing my mom. "When this all began I had woke up the next morning. I was getting ready for school and a walker found its way into my house. I killed it, and I was home alone. My mothers work had sent a rescue team to fetch me and bring me to the 'safe' zone. So much for being a safe zone because about two days later it was overrun. My mom and I tried to escape. My dad was never found and never came to the rescue center. When my mother and I were running she fell down, and a walker came out of no where and bit her on the neck. I kicked the walker in the head, which crushed it's skull. I held my mother in my arms and I didn't even care that there were tons of walkers behind me. I just wanted to die, how could I survive without my mom? When a walker grabbed my arm, I snapped back to reality and fought my way through everything, and I survived for a few years. Here I am." it actually felt nice to get the pain off of my chest.

"That's horrible. I'm sorry babe." babe, he called me babe. I smiled as he kissed me right between the eyes.

Our moment of bonding came to end quickly when Rick barged into the room screaming "TAKE JUDITH AND GO HIDE NOW!" We looked at each other with confusion but followed Rick's order.