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Part 45.

I didn't sleep that night. I poured myself into work. Distracting myself from the pictures and my spontaneous epiphany about Namjoon.

The guys had the day off the next day since the live took much of their energy and it didn't hurt to have Joon home after everything. But honestly, I couldn't really talk to him.

I still felt like I'd hurt him. And I couldn't talk about what was on my mind since it was about how I felt about him. I still thought it was early.

I basically stayed in bed throughout the day besides being dragged out by Jin and Jungkook for breakfast and dinner.

It was Friday and the guys had to go back to work. Tae and Hobi begged me and Alex to join. Of course I didn't want to risk another incident but they promised to show a new dance to us.

This time, I kept my mask on from the apartment lobby to the company elevator. I had put on Joon's hoodie, black leggings and black converse. I had my head slightly down the whole time I was visible.

Joon insisted that I didn't have to do that but I didn't take a chance.

The others got into the elevator to go up to the company but Joon took my hand to stop me from joining them.

"We'll take the next one." He said.

The guys nodded and the only confused ones were me and Alex. Once the elevators doors closed, I turned to Joon.

"What's going on?" I asked.

"What's going on is, is that I haven't seen you smile in two days. You barely got out of bed yesterday. And you didn't even want to come today. And don't think I didn't notice you sneaking off the other night to work. I couldn't sleep with you being out in the living room instead of being in bed with me."

I didn't know what to say. It wasn't sudden but it did take me by suprise.

"Namjoon I.. I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd notice I left."

"Of course I would. I just.."

He looked down and rubbed the top of my hand that was already in his.

"I just don't think you trust me anymore." He glanced at me.

"Of course I trust you. I've trusted you before I even met you!" I slightly raised my voice to make my point.

"Then why haven't you talked to me since we kissed and I told you I'd take care of everything?!"

His reaction caused me to pull my mask down in frustration.

"Because I didn't know what to say and I needed space from everything!"

He scoffed. "I get that you needed space but I didn't think you wanted space from our relationship!?"

"That's not what I meant!"

"Then what did you mean?!"

"I needed space because I realized that I love you, you idiot!"

I was so upset that I didn't realize what I had just said until those words came out of my mouth.

"You what?" He said starring at me, shocked.

"N-nothing. I didn't say anything."

I crossed my free arm infront of me and looked away from his eyes, feeling embarrassed when he stayed quiet.

I felt his finger under my chin to direct my face to his. He laid his lips to mine.

Loving. Sensual. Sweet.