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Part 22.

I got up the next morning with a queasy stomach.

"Ugh I shouldn't have eaten that pint of ice cream last night."

Last night Alex and I finished up rearranging our plans and setting up the new podcast for the tour. The advertisements went out this morning so of course ARMY's are going crazy.

I head to the kitchen to make myself a cup of tea. I see Alex sitting at the Island sipping her coffee.

"Good morning." I said.

"Morning." She said. "Are you all packed up?"

"Yeah. I finished the little bit I had, last night." I said while sitting down next to her, sipping my tea.

"The Twitter for the station has been going off since the ads went up. I had forgotten how dedicated ARMY was." She said.

I nod realizing she's right. "Yep."

I start thinking as I set my cup down.

'There is no way I won't be spotted getting on and off the plane. Some fans pass by Big Hit.

What if they see us going in together?

We'll be staying with them. Fans will probably see me going in and out. They don't know where they live, right?

Will they follow me when I'm alone?

Will they confront me?

How are Namjoon and I supposed to be together if there's gonna be a time where we're spotted?

The fans will know. The media will know. Our families will know. My staff will know. What will they think of me?'

Alex's POV

It's been about a minute since we've said anything. I start to hear some weird noise like pounding air.

"Hey do you hear that?" I say as I look around to find the source of the noise.

When Y/n doesn't answer I turn to her.

"Did you hear-. Y/n?"

It was her. The air was coming from her. She's having a panic attack.

"Shit. Y/n, calm down. Catch your breath."

I turn her on the stool to fully face me and put my hands on her shoulders.

"Y/n? Y/n? Can you hear me? Calm down! You're okay. You're safe. Listen to my voice."

She realizes I'm here and grabs my hand. I see tears coming out of the corner of her eyes.

"Hey, you're okay. You're safe. I'm here. See? You're not alone."

I pet her head as she's starting to catch her breath and calm down.

She blinks a few times then realizes what happened.

She drops her head. "It happened again didn't it?"

I sigh and wipe her tears.

"Yeah. Are you okay?" I said.

She nods. She doesn't look at me.

"Let's move to the couch huh? I'll hold you." I say.

She nods again. I guide her to the couch.

I lay and lean on the arm rest edge and open my arms for her. She lays down next to me and I wrap my arms around her.

"What were you thinking about?" I ask.

I hear her sniffle. "Things."

Lie. "Things about what?"

"My relationship with Namjoon. The media. The fans." She says.

"I know how it feels. I'm scared too but if the people and fans think negative about us, don't let it effect you. Besides, we have two amazing and caring guys by our sides. We also have five other great guys by our sides. They'll know what to do."

I feel her nod against my chest.

"Have you talked to Namjoon about this?"

"No." Her voice was small.

"You should talk with him."

"I can't. He has too much to deal with."

Lie again.

"You have to, either way."

"Well I won't see him till tonight at the airport. Then we have that long flight with everyone. I don't think we would have the time to really talk. We have that meeting and he has to prepare for tour. I think the only time we would have is when we finally sleep."

"I'll take care of it. You have to let him know what you're feeling."

"You know that's hard for me. If it wasn't for you or my brother, I wouldn't be out of my bed right now." She said.

"And you've done such a great job. You have been such a badass. You run a radio show. You put yourself through college. You learned the hardest language out there in just a year. You got this."

She chuckles.

"Have you talked with Jimin?" She asked.

"No. But I will."

"What are you scared about?"

"The same things you're scared about. The media, the fans, people thinking that me being older than him is weird, my mom freaking out and you know just our relationship."

"It's good that I'm not alone in this."

"I mean I'm pretty sure the guys are feeling some type of way about this. They probably have the same worries. I mean, Bang PD doesn't know about me and Jimin yet so I don't know how to talk to him about that. We'll probably tell him when we get there, I don't know."

"Mm." She hummed.

"Are you okay now?" I asked, unsure of her answer.

"Yeah. I just..It's going to be a lot to talk about with Namjoon. I just hope I can find the right words."

"You will. Now go take a hot shower and I'll make breakfast for us."

She nods and gets up to head to her room.

I sigh.

"Thanks sissy." She says.

She hasn't called me that in a long time. I smile.

"No problem, babe."

Y/n has always been like a sister to me. We've grown attached at the hip since we've met. I might be two years older but Y/n is so smart, I'd swear she was older than me.

I get up and start making breakfast.

I pause and get out my phone.

Me: Hey Chimm. I know your working right now but I just want to let you know that I think we should talk when ever you have time.

I press send, hoping he sees it.

Ding!

Chimm: We can talk at the airport before we leave. I've been wanting to talk to you too. See you then ♡

I smile.

Me: Great. See you then ♡

I set my phone down and continue to cook breakfast.

I hope Y/n can say what she needs to say to Namjoon. I'm worried for her.

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HEY GUYS! Sorry the chapters a little late but here it is!

How come Y/n had a panic attack?

What does Jimin want to talk about? Is it the same thing as Alex?

Does age really matter?

Will Namjoon hear Y/n out?

Answers to these questions might be in the next chapter so stay tuned!

BORAHAE!! 💜