Never leave me

Chapter Eighteen ~Thank You~

DAN POV

Thinking of all that has happened today, where would I be without Caitlin? Oh Ya, probably in hell.

The day I reached my all time low was in the frozen yogurt shop, the day I was ready to let it all go, Caitlin was there. She helped me recover, and if she wasn't there, well I wouldn't be here at all. It was almost like fate brought us together once again.

Two hours before I walked into the frozen yogurt shop, I heard the most devastating news. My grandmother passed away, leaving my grandfather, who has Alzheimer's by himself. If that wasn't devastating enough, my grandfather didn't even remember who my grandmother, his wife was when she was on her death bed.

I sat there in her hospital room with my grandfather who seemed lost. I sat there and watched her slowly die, she wasn't able to talk, but she manage to say one little thing to me.

"Daniel, promise me you will take care of your grandfather. I love you." She said barely getting the words out.

I nodded, tears falling down my face.

"I love you too grandma" I said.

She kissed me on the forehead and 6 minutes later, she died. She left us, left me alone with no one to talk to anymore. Yes I had Phil but it wasn't the same.

My grandmother was always there for me, in my happy, and darkest times. She was the one who helped pull my life back together when she first saw me sliding the blade across my arm when I was 17. The one who tried to help cope with my Dad leaving my Mom. She was the one who brought me and my brother to live in her house when my Mom ODed. Ever since I moved in with Phil, I had visited her and grandpa every Sunday.

She still took care of my grandfather even though he didn't remember who she was, or the memories they had shared. In my grandfathers mind, he thought my grandmother was his nurse. Every Monday he would even grab flowers from a pot my grandma had in the living room and ask her on a date. It was the cutest thing ever, but by Tuesday morning he would forget it had ever happened. He didn't remember who I was either. It was truly sad.

I didn't know what I would do without her, and without her gramps would have to go to a nursing home. I truly didn't want to bring him there, but we had no choice, I couldn't take care of him even though I wanted to. So I took to trying to end my life, in the bathroom of a Frozen yogurt shop.

As hard as I tried, I couldn't do it. Memories of my grandmother saying how much she loved me and how she wouldn't be able to forgive herself I had did anything to hurt myself flooded my mind. And I thought of my grandfather and how he would be alone, all alone. I didn't care if he had no clue who I was, he needed me. And I couldn't be as selfish as to take the easy way out. So, I took to cutting thin, thin enough that it wouldn't kill me, but deep enough that it would bleed, a lot.

Sitting in that stall, crying think about my life covered in blood, I was rescued. And the one I can thank for that, and the one I will try to thank everyday is Caitlin. The girl I think I am falling for.